Stopping is just impossible.
I love shooting heroin, it's so odd. Every time I do it I'm so f****** miserable but I just keep going back. My fiancé told me it was either her or drugs, I verbally chose her but I keep getting high on anything I can. I'm totally poor after so much getting high but I still find ways like pawning my belongings and sometimes stealing what cash I can. I'm an addict and I have been to rehab 4 times. I'm going to die this way and I know it. I love my family and fiancé but in the end my brain just screams shoot dope, and then I do it. I hate my life, I just want to stop.