Please come back
I don't know why you left me. You promised me we were going to be together forever, and you've never felt this way about anyone. I thought you were the boy I was going to marry. It sounds so stupid now because I realize you never even cared for me. I should've known that day, the day after I lost my virginity to you. I asked you to come over and bring me plan b because I got so scared of falling pregnant. But you just left to go to the movies with your friends and didn't even tell me. I had to get out of bed, crying, going to the pharmacy and feeling totally humiliated to the point that when I asked for the pill the words couldn't even form in my head. And when I came home I took it and cried in bed all day, wanting to take it all back. I needed you, where were you? I did everything for you, physically and mentally. I opened up to you, I trusted you with everything. For the first time in my life I felt like someone wanted me, and that I could do anything. But then you left for college and suddenly you didn't need me anymore. You never called, never tried to stay in touch. We broke up over text. It was the worst feeling in the world. You promised me we'd stay friends. But you've never even spoken to me since then unless I started the conversation. I meant nothing to you anymore. I try to move on, to take each day one at a time. But all I feel is sadness and regret. I want you, I need you, I miss you. And despite all the bad you've done I love you. I pray to god everyday to give me the strength to move on and forget, but all I feel is unwanted and heartbroken. Please god, give me the strength to feel ok again.