Ready for my first time...
I want him to take my virginity so badly.
My boyfriend and I are so in love. We haven't been together for a significantly long amount of time - not quite 4 months - but we love each other more than anything else in the world. I'm his first girlfriend, and I feel so much better when I'm with him than I have with anyone else. He cheers me up when I'm going through a rough time, he makes me laugh without even trying, he listens to me, and he cares about my feelings. He doesn't flirt with other girls, and he's isn't possessive or controlling. I love him with all my heart, and I know without a doubt that he feels exactly the same way about me. When we're alone together, and he holds me close to him... it's like nothing could ever be wrong. We talk about a future together, and things are never awkward between us. Our relationship is more perfect than I could have ever hoped for it to be.
Now, all that considered, here's another factor to add to the story... I'm 14 years old. He's 15, but only 4 months older than me.
I know it's too young, and I don't want to sound like a stupid little girl who wants to do something she'll regret one day, but I really have given this a lot of thought. We've talked about having s**, too. He says he wants to wait until I'm sure I'm ready, and he has never once pressured me into doing anything I don't feel ready for. He's a virgin, too, and everything we've done together was his first.
A couple months before I started dating him, I was in a bad relationship with a boy who forced me into doing things I had never done, and wasn't ready for. He made me give him a h*ndj*b, and pushed my head down until I gave him a bl*wj*b. He then dumped me a couple days later, for another girl, and I haven't seen him since. My current boyfriend knows all of this, and has comforted me and made it much easier for me to talk about and forget about. I wish that those things could have been my firsts with my boyfriend, the one I love, but they were taken away from me. We have done these things together, because I was more than willing to with him, but now I feel ready to take the next step.
We love each other so much, and I want to do this with him. I don't feel pressured at all, and I know with every part of me that he's the one who I want my first time to be with. I have condoms, neither of us has an STD, and I know we'd be careful... there's just one thing stopping me. I don't want to be "that girl". The one who's called a sl*t. The one who lost her virginity at fourteen. I don't want to be judged by everyone I know, just for wanting to give myself to the boy I love completely.
What's so wrong about that?