I don't love her anymore...
I don't love my girlfriend of 20 months anymore.
The worst thing about my sistuation is, she's 8 months pregnant.
The last time I tried to break up with her, she threatened to kill herself. She actually took a butchers knife out of the drawer and pressed it firmly against her 4 week pregnant belly.
When I tried to get the knife off of her, she swung for me with it.
I got it off of her eventually.
I feel like Im being imprisoned in this relationship.
If I tell her how I truely feel, she makes threats against herself.
I feel like I'm only with her at the moment in order to ensure that the child is born and gets a chance to live. I feel that if I break up with her now, we will have an even worse off situation to that of the knife incident.
I tried to break up with her but I'm just not strong enough. Im miserable. Im not happy. Im not sexually attracted to her anymore.
And when I come home after a long day of work, I find her voice is the last thing I want to hear.
Don't get me wrong, I care for her. Very deeply. But I don't love her anymore. I just want to be on my own. I'm only 22 and I don't want to be tied down from now on until the rest of my life.
She wants an engagement ring, but I don't want to buy it. I don't even believe in marriage.
I just want out. Im miserable, sad, lonely, stressed and tired.
I moved about 70 miles from my hometown for her (when I loved her). I just want to move back to my hometown where my friends are. I don't have any friends down here.
I work 40 hours a week and then I just go home and clean the house, make the dinner, etc.
I need a break. A long one. Before I snap.
I don't cry very often, but I'm welling up as I write this.
I really need advice on what to do. I just want out. I want to be free and be me again. I know I can't because Im about to have a son but I can still live happily outside of our relationship and be involved with my son.