So much Anger
I have so much hate for life right now. I fought in Afghanistan many times and they believe I have severe PTSD. I have no love for nothing not even my wife and kids. I have found one thing in life that makes me happy and it drives me crazy. Her name is Ingrid and I work with her everyday. I wish I could be with her, just to touch her. I know nothing like that will ever happen because we are both married. I want to tell her how much she makes me happy and forget about all my problems. When I am not having nightmares, I am having wonderful dreams with me and her in it. These dreams aren't even s** dreams, they're just us two touching and being together. It is a damn shame that my kids and my wife don't make me happy. I sometimes think about just ending it all and have an eternal dream of me and her together forever. I wish I could tell her how I fell without consequences, but soon it will be over anyways because I am sick and don't have much longer.