Dreams that have become living nightmares!!!

I vividly dreamed about a man years before I knew of or even met him, and in my dream, he was my husband who loved me unconditionally. It was so real. Since meeting him last year, I still have been having dreams about him, but my waking life does not nearly reflect those dreams. We kind of know each other, but do not talk. He is not even on a friendship level. He seems like he is attracted to men despite him saying he is not gay. Maybe that was his way of saying he goes both ways. He also seems obsessed with females of any race but his own, which imo, is likely deeply rooted in self hatred, and a huge red flag since we are the same race. He says he's single and has been that way for years, and so have I. I cut all contact with him also because, despite him being very kind and even flirtatious in person, he used to ignore the crap out of me and was rude via phone / text and once he moved, it felt like I was chasing behind him for a response. I am not interested in a romantic relationship with him in real life because his personality is very immature, but I gravitated to him mainly b/c of the dreams, and I feel like the dreams turned my life into a living h***. He is physically the man in my dreams, but in real life...spiritually, mentally, etc...I don't know who the h*** that guy is. I wish to GOD I can stop having dreams about him so I can get along with my life. I cannot stop thinking about him no matter how hard I've tried and it is literally making me sick. I've prayed, and have done everything humanly and spiritually possible to forget about him. I guess I'll just sit and be still now, and wait for this curse to pass over.

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