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Endless pain
I am a 40 yr old woman with 2 great kids and a loving boyfriend. I have friends who love me. I have a roof over my head and clothes to wear.
I also have Lupus, arthritis, depression, anxiety, and degenerative disc disease. I am in constant, unrelenting pain 24/7. I'm so tired of it. I am in pain management, and the doc has given me so many injections that just hurt for weeks on end. I just found out today that I have Class 2 kidney nephritis. It's only bad news, always, and I'm just over it. All the doctor visits. All the therapy. All the everything.
Some days I just want to end it all.
Your kids don't deserve to lose their mother to a selfish act like suicide so I hope you are not serious. Unrelenting pain is awful and depression doesn't help. Stay strong. Be brave. Find a church maybe for support? Also watch comedies if that is your thing to try to get your mind off the pain. Laughter is good. Reach out for help and find a way to give to others so you don't focus on your problems.