Too many good men.

I met two wonderful men at the same time. They both seem to fall for me quick and hard. After about five dates I had to decide. Picked one to "dump". Felt horrible. Told him I was confused. Three more dates with the other, now officially my boyfriend....he is a terrific person....just does not seem like "the one". Now I must hurt him, he seems crazy about me. The other one is waiting.....Another issue....Ex boyfriend shows up. Another wonderful guy, love him so much....just does not have his sh-t together, wants me back. I spent a couple days with him (no s**).

After I "dump" A, will I go with B and have to dump him for C? Sometimes I just want to die because I don't want to hurt ANYONE. Terrible confused and depressed.