I don't know why I'm doing this.
For a really long time I've wanted to try cutting myself. I've been told it's bad but for whatever reason I want to try it. For a long time I've been sad and unsatisfied, crying at night, listening to emo rock, etc. But I KNOW I'm just being selfish, that there are other people who have better reasons to be sad when I don't. I have loving parents and good grades, no friends, but content with it. But still I feel really sad. People hate what I talk about and eventually I drive my peers away one way or another. I always feel I deserve more, that I COULD be better. And for a long time I've had false hope that it will get better. And now after all of this, I realize that I just have to deal with it. One day I won't be sad, or at least I think, and I don't need advice. Why can't I just have no emotion, it wold be so much easier that way. Maybe one day I won't have complaints...
Ugh, I read this and found out how stupid my feelings sound. I should not publish this.