I'm noticing other women. Not meaning to, not staring, just noticing.
Last night a classmate came over and hung out at my place with some friends, lets call her C. I knew C was into me and confronted her about it after everyone left, politely but directly. I said exactly how I felt - I love my girlfriend (first college gf, of 6 months, lets call her L) but I think it may not be working out. L is super clingy, which is understandable - I am her first everything and firsts are huge. But sometimes I feel L wants something else. L and I have also seen each other through some fairly rough things already in each other's family lives.
C responded that she had feelings for me, but that she wasn't comfortable with doing anything wrong. I grew up in a VERY catholic (and by that I mean my dad is a preacher) household, so neither was I. We didn't touch, we just talked about it. She ended up staying until 6am when it was light out - I didn't want her to walk back alone, but I'm really sick and we both didn't feel comfortable having her sleep in my bed (I would have taken the floor). I enjoyed the honesty and being able to say how I felt, and then we parted ways. Even so, I have confused feelings about L and C now, and I think C wants to see me again after spring break.
I feel like a j****** for enjoying last night so much. I like C. Feels good to write it out. L and C are both sharp, have attractive, warm personalities, and like video games and cooking. They're beautiful, inside and out. I'm trying to handle the situation like a gentleman, but I don't know if I trust myself around C.