Any other woman felt this?
Ive been married for almost 20 yrs to a great guy and great dad for our 2 kids but hes never ever ever been good in bed so ive almost always cheated a little bit here and there with differrent guys just so i can get the s** that a woman like me needs. but last year i found something that really lit me up in ways i cant explain but just want to see if anybody else has done it and gotten turned on by it. early last year i found out i was pregnant and then found out it probably belonged to one of the guys i was flinging with at the time and definitely not my husbands. i was totaly freaked but after a few days i started to like being pregnant for a man i wasnt married to. i didnt tell anybody but i just loved the feeling of walking around my husbands house and laying in bed with him and going to family functions and even to our church while i was carrying an illegitimate child inside me. i aborted it before i started showing but i couldnt get that feeling out of my mind. so last summer i went out and got myself knocked up again and i kept that baby even after i started to show and lied to everybody about who it belonged to but my husband never remembers when we f*** so it wasnt a big deal. but that baby might have been black so i had another abortion to keep anybody from knowing and told my husband i had miscarried. after that i wanted another illegitimate feeling and started timing my ovulations and went out the whole weekend before valentines day with my new LTR boyfriend while my husband was out of town and got pregnant again this time totally on purpose. this time i think i want to keep it all the way and raise it like it belongs to my husband. the feeling of being pregnant with another mans baby and telling lies to my husband and kids and parents about it is just way too f****** exciting to describe but i totally love the idea and i think that raising a child like that would be even more exciting, knowing that i got pregnant outside my marriage the way i did.
has anybody else ever done this? i know its weird and probably sick but i just wanna know if anybody else loves this way sooooooo much like i do.