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Biggest mistake of my life
Three years ago, I married an older woman. I knew she was beyond wild, and that she was far better in bed and knew far more about ** than anybody I'd ever been with. I thought I'd hit the jackpot, finding somebody so skilled and who wanted to settle down and have a family, neither of us having been married before. Last year, through a series of unbelievable coincidences, I discovered that she had worked for over twenty years as a prostitute. First, at a brothel in Nevada, and then at two secret call-out services in Florida. I exploded and moved out of the house, and then filed for and got a divorce. I wanted an annulment, because I thought the marriage had been conceived in fraud and consummated in deceit, but the factual circumstances didn't allow for that, so I settled for divorce, which was finalized in December.
Since then, I've learned that, while I can certainly find another wife, I can't possibly replace the **. And I realize just how important ** was, and is, to me. The women I've had since I left home are pitiable by comparison to my ex, and it is as if they've never made love to a man, or had a man make love to them. It's not just what they don't know how to please a man: they don't even know how to let a man please THEM. It's awful. So, I regret having left my wife, who knew how to please a man and how to BE pleased by one. I want her back, but she won't have me. I can't say I blame her: I said some awful things about her and her past, and though I meant them at the time, I no longer feel that way. I just want her back, no matter what kind of nastiness and perversion and deviancy she may have been involved in before we met. I've never made a mistake so huge, and I would take her back right this minute, and maybe even let her do her former job on the side if she wanted to.
I miss her, and I love her.
No, don't listen to this idiot below. You will get over her. You can find women who are good at **, even if there aren't many, without her being a disgusting person that was with many men.
It's a skill, it can be learned, you just need an eager and willing partner.
You never miss the water until the well runs dry. Too bad you didn't know in advance what she did for a living. Prostitution is a great teacher. As you found out, she could please a man in every way with no inhibitions. I dated a prostitute from Nevada for awhile, but she went back to it and I had to move on. She was something else...