I like my cousin
My name is...well it doesn't matter. Im 18. Anyway, my story is that...I feel kind of embarrased writing this but I really like my cousin. I dont have such feelings for any other girl in my college. I havent had s** with her though. As I said before, I'm 18 and she's 20 (yes shes 2 years older). Damn, those neighbour cats are really annoying.
Anyways, so she gave me her cell no. We chatted a bit (Not about love or anything). We met at parties and I didn't think of her that way until one day, that was about a year ago, we met at this wedding and she looked...amazing, i mean im talking total freakin blackout amazing. C, thats when it happened, u know u must be thinking the guys an idiot when I say this, but I think it was love at first sight(Or that one sight specifically). And for a second there I couldn't speak to her. And after a while I decided to be a man(though im not completely), tell her that I love her. So I texted her "I like You". And she was like "You are like a brother to me". And so I backed off immediately and told her I was joking. We don't have the same relationship after that.
So, the sad part here is that she was getting married to my(And yes hers) other cousin and now the wedding is canceled. I think I should go say to her face that I love her. I still c that she wants me to, my im too chicken s***. So what should I do? Should I talk to her like a cousin and be happy? Or tell her I love her to her face? Or a third option would be appreciated. Thx in advance.