All I've Wanted

Was to love and be loved in return and I never f****** get it. I love others so f****** much and they never give a flying f*** about me. All they do is criticize me for being a survivor and only care about them f****** selves and their so-called “drama”.

I can’t even say my boyfriend loves me. I don’t f****** feel it and I hate so badly that I don’t ‘cause I f****** love him and he isn’t aware of all the f****** sacrifices I’ve made for his f****** sake and what does he do? Write a f****** hate song about me for no f****** good reason and call me a fat cabbage patch b**** when I have a f****** thyroid condition and work my ass off every day just to prevent getting f****** fat.

Yeah I’ve done gross s*** to make $ and survive and pay my bills and stay f****** afloat but that doesn’t mean I’m not good inside. I’m not a f****** w****.

I just wanna be loved for me, imperfections and all, just like I love and accept others more f***** up than I am…

My mom was only one to but she left long ago. I just want and need that again.

Maybe someday. And I’m praying and begging God wherever the F*** he is to just let me have it. Whoever it f****** is.

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  • i'm so sorry bout your bf being a total tool bag and to be honest though i don't love you it doesn't mean i hate you and i'm so so sorry

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