My boyfriend (of five mouths) and I tried to have s**, his d*** wouldn’t go in all the way, and my cherry never actually popped. A few minutes after he got off of me, I started crying because I felt really dirty with myself. I don’t know why, I technically didn’t lose my virginity to him. But the next day, he asked me if I still felt dirty and I said I didn’t, but I lied to him. Now whenever he puts a hand on me, it takes everything I have from pushing it away.
I still love him but because of the feeling this made me had… I don’t think it’ll go away anytime soon. I don’t want to break up with him because of it, but it’s hard to be close to him or anyone when all I want to do is sulk in my room.