When I was about 12/13 I was in the hot tub with some friends and a lot of them left and I was left alone with a friends brother. He was about 17 I think. He was joking and I was just really goofy at that age and was joking too and he “jokingly” put his hand up my swimsuit bottoms. His hand was only there for like 4 seconds. I laughed because I didn’t know what to do but was so uncomfortable. Like a minute later some little sisters of the friends jumped in and I got out and he followed me and said something like “sorry about.. that thing I did I hope you don’t think I’m like that” and I was just like “oh no haha it’s ok I know you’re not like that” but I felt sick that night and I forgot about it for like three years and then I remembered again and now I think about it a lot. I don’t know why but I feel embarrassed and I know I didn’t do anything wrong but I feel so embarrassed for some reason. I’ve never told anyone I know and never willFeb 1, 2021
I mean, no matter how much he tried to play it off as a joke, it was a transgression of your personal space and it's perfectly natural to be shaken and upset about it. If you feel it's getting in the way of your mental well being you should talk to someone, either a professional or an adult you trust.