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I gave my best friend a ** and it's ruining our friendship...
I feel a lot of things right now. For one, I'm disappointed in myself (I think). I'm in college and rooming with my best friend. His name is Josh. I've known him for 11 years and we've always gotten along really well (yes, I'm male). Anyway, I made a mistake the other day that I'm really struggling with. We were drinking some beers, I got really drunk after about 6 or 7 of them. Someone came over, someone he knows but hasn't for very long. Anyway, after about five minutes he pulled out some cocaine.
I'd never done cocaine before. It cleared up the drunken haze I was feeling. We all did it, but I seemed to like it the most (or it's possible I just had the hardest time controlling my enthusiasm). The guy who brought it over left after about an hour, and then it was just the two of us. We got to talking about a lot of different things, and eventually the conversation turned to **. Josh has a girlfriend (has never had a hard time with girls) and is definitely an attractive guy. I don't have a girlfriend and have struggled with this for years. It's not that I'm not attractive (I'm not Brad Pitt) but I'm surely more shy than he is. I've only had a few girlfriends in my life, and it's been a long time since the last one.
Anyway, I don't really know how else to say this other than to say it: the coke made me really **. I don't know how it happened (God, I'm so ashamed), but before long I started asking him a lot of personal questions about how often he had **, who he had it with, if he got a lot of blow jobs, for one. Then he asked me, "Why, you wanna give me one or something?" Before I knew what I was doing, impulsively, I told him I would. He said, "Whoa, I was just kidding dude!" but somehow, a minute or so later I was undoing his belt. And I did it.
The whole thing lasted about five minutes. Neither one of us is gay. But for whatever reason, he let me go through with the act. While I was doing it I couldn't believe it, but I kept at it. I honestly had fun doing it; he was rock hard and it made me happy to know that I was helping someone feel good. I finished it (meaning I brought him to **). He came in my mouth, I swallowed (that was kind of different), no mess at all. He then zipped up without saying anything.
Since then he hasn't said a word to me. After he came, he basically disappeared, and every time I've seen him since he's had a cold look on his face, not a word. What did I do so wrong? I mean, I know I performed oral ** on another man, but that's not immoral. I'm not gay, but I guess the fact that I broke my own "rule book" (if that makes sense) by doing this extreme thing is really bothering me. Also, I made a really stupid choice indulging in that drug; if I hadn't done that, none of this would have happened.
What do I do now? Should I try to talk to him? Should I leave it for time to heal? I'm just at a loss, and really down on myself. Things are different between us now, and there's no going back in time to fix this. Have I ruined our friendship? Oh God, I feel terrible. I guess it's only natural, considering how stupid I was. If anyone has any advice, I'd be so grateful. Thanks for reading this.
Guys who read this and call him gay :D
The reason you are feeling guilty is because what you did is immoral. I don't say that because I'm perfect but there are things that God say is ok and things that are not. Deep down we all know that male on male sexual activity is wrong and is a sin. That isn't what I say that is what God says. Our society has become tolerant of this type of behavior and God says it's sinful and that is why there is guilt. Your concience and his is working like it supposed to. It's pointing you back God. He wants you to come back to HIM. He died for you on the cross to save you from what these actions do to your soul. Simply confess your sins and He'll forgive you!!! 1 John 1:9 says confess your sins to HIm and He is faithful and just to forgive you of your sins.! BUT 1 John 1:10 says if you say you are with out sin you call God a liar. He wants you to come to him! Simply pray to him. Confess it and most of your guilt will be dealt with. The rest will come from fixing it with your friend and time to heal the rest. Good luck and DON'T BELIEVE 1 PERSON THAT SAYS I'M CLOSED MINDED OR A BIGGOT! I have plenty of skeletons in my closet. God Forgives!!
Oh yes, how lovely. Don't listen to this person. His god is no more real than Zeus or Vishnu.
There is a higher chance of Bigfoot existing than of Jehova creating the world in six days.
Don't feel guilty about your actions. There is nothing wrong with same-** sexual interaction. It was a bad decision to toke up the coke but that's all it was. I'm sure he's just feeling very awkward about the situation. Talking it out might work but it's all about how you approach the subject.
Don't just bring it up out of nowhere. If you care for this friendship, it's best to try to repair it in bits and pieces.
You clearly know nothing if you think God isn't real so you better wake up before its to late dude God is real I can promice you that an God is good to his children even for those who dousnt believe in Him
The bible is a 6-10 thousand year old "document" (age depends on who you ask) which was written in many different languages by many different people at the time that it was being authored.
Then, over the course of 6-10 thousand years, it was translated into just as many languages before finally being translated into English...
With different "versions".
Please, tell me about how the bible is so accurate to God's actual message, which was of love and tolerance.
** or Sperms are countless dude you cannot stop on **..
Really?
There is no God you **.
Honestly,in my experience I realized that the reason why a man wants to be ** is just because of their **...When you are going to cut you would really like it and you cannot explain what's the feeling it was when a man is **...And most of the reasons why they did this is that the men's ** are countless and men's have millions of sperms...When you are going to ** you are not wasted ** because it is limited and countless its millions dude...Every men cannot stop **...
The fact that you read the confession kinda shows you want it too. Get off your high horse.
I was reading this because I just did this to my straight guy friend earlier. I'm gay and he's not, good thing about it is he knows I am gay and told me he just wanted to try new things fir his girlfriend has been out for two weeks now. He let me do it while he watched straight **. We just laughed about it after. I know he's not gay but he repetitively told me he enjoyed it.
I have a similar situation. A really good friend of mine went on a tour with me away from home. My friend knows about me being gay, he has known for years. On the trip he repeatedly wanted head from me. Know that we are back home it is as if he completely flipped 180'and cant stop fixating about woman around our friends and colleagues. His distancing himself from me. Don't know how to handle this.
When I was a kid about 11 my next door who was older than me about 13 . I was young and curious he showed me his ** and started to ** then he told me if I sucked his ** he would ** mine.needless to say I got on my knees and sucked his **. When it was his turn to ** mine he told me too ** his some more so I did until he came in my mouth I spit it out I didn't know what the ** it was. So that was my first sexual experience, I'm not gay have a wife and kids been married 16 years our ** life is awesome ,and from time to time I think of sucking that guy off and I get off. But I'm not gay
We did the same thing. We would camp out and one thing led to another pretty soon 4 of us were exchanging blow jobs. I really liked it . Not gay at all though but did go down in a few guys when I was 12.Even my friends 19 yr old brother.Still think of it
First, don't put all responsibility on you. It's not like if you had r*** him or something. There was some consent from what I can read.
He also feel ashamed after what happened. I think you guys need to talk and state that none of you are gays ( nothing wrong with it, but why being perhaps perceived as something you guys are not ( from what I read). If that is what causes the awkwardness, then a clarification is necessary. Don't even bother to blame each other. You both did!
He might be acting that way cause he don't want to repeat this.
After, you guys should separate for a while. It's only a matter of time! He has been your friend for long time.
I wish I had a friend like you!!! Howdy!!! Well, for one this is the stuff that goes with college life. Experimentation. Don't be so worried about it ...let it go. You did nothing wrong but if your gonna indulge in drugs and drink this is the stuff that happens. Light up. Let us know what happens. Peace out.
Dude your gay bro,sorry to burst your bubble,bi atleast.
get over it,it takes 2 to tango,dont blame the **,tonsw of people do it,and don't wind up with a ** stuffed down there throat.i performed oral ** on a friend once,** happens.move on,as far as him,he'll ** around.
I did this to my friend and im not gay but i was drunk
First let me start off with everything WRONG about your statement. "Your" is a possessive term such as "That is your bike" the word you're looking for is "you're" meaning you are. The word is "tons" not tonsw. "wind up with a ** stuffed down there throat." Really? The word is THEIR. There is used to describe the location of objects and others. Also, he's not gay just because he experimented with another male. That may have been the case for you but it's not for everyone.
Sperms are millions no one can stop you from doing jerks or ** whenever you wanted to because sperms are unlimited..countless and there are millions of it...
Nope, you are wrong. Gay is being attracted to the opposite **, as in holding hands, being in love, marriage, etc.. ** a woman's ** is no different from ** another man's **. It feels the same but it doesn't mean that as a man you want to go out on a date or whisper sweet nothings into each others ears.
OP is a **. It's obligatory. But you're not gay.
Dude... there are bits and pieces of each comment that are true (except the homophobes who are trolling).
1. i know you're straight, but that really makes no difference to the issue. it's completely natural to a) get ** on drugs, and b) want to experience ** acts with the same gender.
2. yes, you screwed up. ** with friends is always going to be risky, whether it's dudes or chicks, but don't blame the drugs. Understand that it was your choice because you were curious. simple.
3. your buddy blames you for the fact that he did something 'gay'. he doesn't want to have to deal with the fact that he chose to do it. I don't think you should talk to him about it further than saying: "we did it, it was a mistake, sorry".
4. it will probably take him a long time to get over it, but he will, although your relationship with him will always be different.
5. A few years from now, you're going to ** another **, and probably not be bothered by it in the least. Just choose more carefully.
Sperms are millions and countless it is normal to ** whenever you wanted to...
Don't worry he will be talking to you real soon because he knows you liked sucking his ** and will when ever he lets you from now on. Your status has changed from being his friend to becoming his little ** and he will treat you like one , He doesn't have to be friendly and talk to you except to tell you he wants you to do it again .Since he is just getting his ** sucked it doesn't make him gay but yu are a ** sucker and a male and that means that you are the gay one but don't worry you like t ** ** and will be rewarded for doing a good job
OP is a ** **
--> so much beta-try in this thread ><
I think that your friend probably feels as conflicted as you do.
He probably thinks what he let you do was wrong but he also enjoyed it.
And no, it is not gay that you gave him a **, it's fine
my straight guy friends have blown me before and luckily it hasn't changed anything.
I would suggest talking to him about it and tell him that you regret doing the coke
good luck mate
Sperms are millions dude it is countless and unlimited you can ** whenever you want ...it will not be wasted because every men have a millions of sperms ...so many countless sperms or **..
Yes he liked it. I woke up thinking a g was going down on me. Turns out it was a friend of mine. It felt strange but so good I filled his mouth.!
Dam same thing happened to me Except i was high af and gone...
You ** gay. Straight men don't give **. Admit it. You gay and will probably do it again. Sick.
Right, ignore this comment. It's hateful and ignorant.
Its fine ive wanted to give a ** to a guy (and haven't) nor have I ever had one :/ so I guess I have no authority to comment but just cause you blew a guy 1+ times doesn't mean your gay: your high and drunk
Homophobic **.
WTF is wrong with you? This man has done nothing to deserve just a negative treatment from you. If anyone deserves this treatment it would be YOU for thinking that you have the right to insult people. You are only making yourself feel better about the wrongs YOU have done by insult others for their flaws. Heck, if u want someone to insult to make yourself feel better, Insult me! I'll give u a reason. I am a brony and i am about to give MY best friend a **. We both see nothing wrong with this (yes i am a man). In two weeks it will happen. I have been curious about it for a while. So go ahead. Insult ME. Call me all kinds of derogatory names and terms. I think i have heard all of them by now. And this man who wrote this story has done nothing wrong that all of us havent done in our life. Now, for u sir that i am responding. STFU.
I hope SWIM one day breaks your jaw with their **. And you think back to the day you wrote this comment. When that day comes would you please try to say "Karma's a **" provided your not choking too much
I'm glad you feel as though you have the divine right to tell people what their sexuality is! Humble yourself!
Sperms are millions,countless and unlimited dude no one can stop you from jerking and ** even if you did it whenever you want coz sperms are such so many and countless...
You took the time to read it.
yeah...........he definitely wants more of what you gave him. start sending him emails of pix showing guys blowing guys and let nature take its course. i think youll have that sweet meat back in your mouth before the end of the week. you two are gonna be even better friends than you were. so get ready for the best ** and the most ** of your entire life. eventually you wont be able to count all the hot loads hes gonna be pumping down your sweet throat.
I'm not sure when this confession was posted.
What I got from reading the post is that your friend seemed as if he was enjoying the act as well. If he was in the right mind and a true friend who didn't want it he would have told you to stop doing the act 5 secs in.
You are both the blame for continuing, so your friendship may be awkward but surely it will solve itself over time if you really are good mates... I would try talking to him apologizing first for what you did see how he responds and if he apologizes too.
If he apologises he's genuinely sorry for letting you go through with it and regrets it himself as true mates don't let you do stuff you don't want to and if he doesn't apologise then he enjoyed it but blames you for coming onto him.
But YOU haven't ruined the friendship as I think it swings both ways