This is life
I am do lonely I think about killing myself all the time. My husband treats me like s*** and I day dream about being with my ex. I miss his romance and passion. I do not have that with my husband. He calls me fat and disgusting and threatens to hit me. He hasn't hit me yet, just throws things at me and trashes the house. I wish I could die so I could revisit the times of my past and feel that happiness again.