I've had a couple suicide attempts, and
I've had a couple suicide attempts, and most of my childhood and adolescence was filled with lingering, vaguely suicidal thoughts and intense depression. Last night, there was a suicide scene in a movie I was watching with my friends and for the first time in 11 years, I felt disturbed by the idea of suicide. I feel so good about it, but I can't tell my friends because then I would have to tell them about how bad I felt in the first place, and I don't want to worry them or make them think I'm just talking about it for attention. I have no one to share this moment of happiness with because I never let anyone in on my sadness.