Dear Jared...

Dear Jared,
I don't know what you think. I don't know what to say, or even if I should say anything. I don't know, and that's the problem. I want to talk to you. I want to be able to say something to you, anything, and you'd look at me smile. I love that smile really. It's so cute. Haha. You're incredibly handsome, and I don't understand how people don't see that. Maybe it's because you're kind of tiny. But you're pretty tall. And those broad shoulders... sigh. I wish I could take it all back. I wish I could've done something to make it different because I know now that I could've. I wish you would've have waited for me... to you know; be okay. I wish you didn't have to ignore me now. I don't know how you're thinking of me. Or rather, of us. I'm too scared to say anything.

I'm sorry, Jared. I'm so sorry. I want to be with you, I do. I want you to understand me... I hate hate hate this awkwardness. I know I didn't tell you what was going on. I'm sorry I didn't but how could I? "Oh, yeah, so my brother is missing, I have a gaping whole in need of unconditional love, and my mom abandoned me." A real turn on right? Sigh...

I just want to be back together now that I know... I want to just... sigh. I love you. I'm not IN LOVE with you but I care about you. I wish you'd just come back. But I can only wish so much.

I really do like your smile though. I like seeing you happy. I guess do whatever you can to be happy. If that means moving schools or being away from me, then okay... whatever works...

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  • Sorry, but no. you're an emotional mess and far too moody for me. you want what you want. you expect people to conform to your desires. your time is much better spent dealing with your problems, and i say that in your best interest. i will always care for you, however, i'm now broken. i need to figure out what's best for me. for now i think it will be some seriously heavy drinking, and as much s** with random idiots as i can possibly get.

  • Heavy drinking and random s**? Typing that isn't considered proper? Bye, bye, troll. (:

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