Meaningless Crush for almost 2 years.
I am in love with a girl that is one year younger than me in school, I have added her on facebook as it was the only way I can pick up my courage to talk to her.
Although I messaged her, but she won't even reply my message, and for the first time she replied my message, I jumped up so happily. But, after that, I told her I would wave to her in school so that she would know who I am. But, for being an introvert, I didn't do that.
Time went on, and I began to give up.
She didn't reply my message on facebook anymore, and the feeling of looking at all my messages instead of her's, I didn't message her anymore. I'm scared that I will give her a bad impression, and I'm also scared that she will think that I am too clingy.
Then, I began to lead my life as usual, avoiding walking past her class in school. And, since she doesn't know how I looks like, I have no problem walking by her as a senior.
Soon, I found out that she had a boyfriend already, and I know that this is a meaningless crush.
What should I do?
I'm so confused, how the h*** do I get myself into this state when I haven't even spoke to her once in real life?
Is this a joke?
Or, to be exact, am I a joke?