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*sighhh
I just feel so depressed and that I never do anything right. Sometimes I feel like a lonely failure, but I don't know why. I just don't know where my place is in the world. Sometimes I feel as if I'm on the verge to pass away, as if its just my time, but I don't want to go yet. I feel as if there's another purpose in this world for me but I have no clue what it is. Recently I've decided that I wanted to lose a little weight but when I just checked the scale an it showed that I've actually gained some weight! I felt so depressed about it I went straight to da bathroom and threw up. I've always wanted to tell someone about my bulimia and depression but I don't want no one to feel sorry for me, I hate for people to see me at a weak state... There's just soooo much I want to say now but I'm tired of typing lol,maybe ill vent more later to get this stuff off my chest to feel a tiny bit better. So until then.
I know exactly how you're feeling. Felt like that a little while ago too and somewhat still do. I recently didn't know what my place in this world was. But I decided to take advice from this guy I knew. I stepped back in my life and looked what what I did best, and what I loved doing. I'm really good at creating things, and making things. These were special gifts of mine. So I decided to major in Product Designing.
Everyone's got a special gift that no one else has. Find that gift, and build on it. Use it to mark you place in the world.
About the wanting to lose weight. It's all about will power. Gaining a little weight isn't that big of a problem cause it can be lost really easily. Simple steps to start is to just say no to fatty foods. Exercise wise you can just start with walks around the neighborhood at night. (be safe though =D) but just keep at it over time and push yourself little by little.
Stay strong though. Everyone's got a place in life. It's frustrating when you haven't found it yet, but when you do, you're world would slowly light up.
Here's a little song I listen to when I lose hope sometimes. Hope it helps you
The Script - Hall of Fame (Lyric) ft. will.i.am
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dtgoDXEOxTM