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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
This probably wont be of much interest to you but I am sending it anyway just to explain how much you influence your readers thoughts. I had to go to work today (Sunday) to finish a big project. My four black guys werent there it was just me and a few other team members who were doing this job and the others left about 3:00 and I stayed to finish compiling the reports and attachments. I got done about 6:30 and when I finished I closed my office door (even though I was alone in the building) and started daydreaming about this black man whose kids go to school with one of mine. I dont know what he does exactly but hes obviously a professional and very well spoken. And handsome. And hung. We have exchanged a few heated glances but nobodys made any move. I slid my pants down to my knees and frigged myself like crazy imagining what that man could do to me and my body and how he would fill up every hole I have. But do you know what made me **? It was reading this from your message: "I see a day when you will be cuddling a bi-racial child, to the amazement of your household and your parents, siblings and friends.....its coming". Is that sick? That I had an ** thinking about cuddling the illegitimate child of a man I have never even had ** with? Having the child under those circumstances and right under the noses of my husband family parents children and friends???!? Even typing those words just now and thinking of it is making me wet again. There must be something wrong with me.......
Lol lol..you simply just made my night.You have made tremendous progress in just a couple of days.You are on your way to reality and you may be heading to a point of no return!I can just imagine you in your office,pleasuring yourself,craving a bi-racial child.Your cravings may bother you either till you ** a black guy or have the child. Since you have already exchanged hot glances with this guy,I suggest you stop him the next two days,introduce yourself and ask him what is name is or what kid of work he does.That will get him focused on you and get things flowing smoothly in the very near future.I bet you if you start this week,you will most likely bed the guy before the end of April, no matter how married he is.Be kool calm and collected when you talk to him yet focused on getting his ** in you. Ask him out for coffee if you have to;there are men who love it when a woman asks them out.If he says no,take no offense and move on.When women tell us no,we keep going and asking till we get a yes.Nothing wrong with you doing that;and since you are married,you sort of have to be the prawl till you get what you want-a good ** or a baby.You have to prepare mentally that this will either cost you your marriage or make it different,stronger or weaker.You know what kind of black guy you will be attracted to so,don't wait for him to find you,go find him and get yourself what your heart so strongly desires and lacks.Another thing,mention this to hubby this week;"I saw a real cute/handsome bi-racial child today",or if you happen to see a biracial child together or on tv,say "that bi-racial child is so cute/handsome".Don't say anything else after any of those statements,just wait and listen carefully to what your hubby says.That will open the doors for you to figure out how to go about this.So you know,there is nothing wrong with you,you are just a normal white woman with unfulfilled desires:)
I will try to send another message later on maybe when I get home and everybody is asleep but right now I wanted just to tell you how powerful you affect the people here and using myself as the example. When you say some of the things you say here I can feel your words in my womb so help me God. Its thrilling but its also a little scary because now when I think about the guy I see at my kid's school.....I can also feel his babies there in the same way. You have also put the idea of quintuplets in my head and it wont go away. I dont know if I am a normal white woman or not but I feel like wanting these particular black men really is more normal than I thought before. Thank you!!
There is really nothing strange radical or unique in what I advocate here. Just a few minutes ago,I read “How Affairs Make My Marriage Stronger”, a Yahoo article written my Anna Davies of Redbook.I suggest you and others Google it up and read it.The article talked about a movie,The House of Cards,that I have never seen. Affairs happen daily by people you least expect;our sisters,brothers,wives,husbands,aunts,uncles,dads,bosses,co-workers,pastors,doctors,could be having an open or discreet affair that we know nothing about,and not that its any of our business really. Chances are our siblings are a result of an affair and we don't know it.One time,a friend going through divorce, had a DNA done on his 3 kids and found out that the middle child was not his.He always had an affair going,he never thought his so "dedicated" wife was discreetly doing the same.Just a quintuplets story I read today; a Canadian woman wanted kids so badly that she believed and lied to boyfriend,friends and medical people about being pregnant with quintuplets,got gifts and she is now in trouble. In other words,some desires are so strong that they may turn uncontrollable and can overwhelm our lives. If you don't find a way to quench your thirst for a black guy or a bi-racial child,chances are you will be pre-occupied with this hunger for the rest of your life.If you plan on staying married,it is imperative that somehow you have hubby on board or know that he will stay and help you if you get knocked up,which am sure you are craving.
More to come later but am at work and have to get back to it.....but two things. First I am already pretty much the dominant partner in the marriage. I have the Type A personality and I drive hard and my husband usually stays out of my way. I don't know if my affair-pregnancy fantasy will come true but if it does I wouldnt want to tell him about paternity until the baby is born: I want the pleasure of that nine months all to myself and my lover if he consents. Plus I want to see hubby's face and my childrens faces when they walk in and I'm holding the new child. My husband will explode and probably even threaten to leave but he knows he has it good with me and I know how to push his buttons enough that I think I can keep him on board and paying to raise the child: I dont expect him to be thrilled but I do expect for him to take care of me and the baby. I doubt if he'll support my continued relationship with the father but that's another matter. Second.....you use the word "cravings" like you know my body! **!! I look at my black workers now and I see their flaws as potential partners (although I'd still like to have them all ** me.....repeatedly!!!) and as fathers and now my body is aimed at the man I see at my kid's school, and yes I totally am craving him and his black **. GAWD!!!!! You really get me! Thank you!