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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
After 22 years of marriage, with the kids grown and gone, my wife launched into an affair with a black man we both knew. I always suspected they had the hots for each other, but I never thought they had done anything or ever would do anything. It lasted for over 4 years before I discovered it, and when I confronted her with it, she said exactly what the woman you mentioned said: "Divorce me or deal with it, I really don't give a **, but I'm not giving him up." I tried to accept it as a passing phase, or as a transitional thing, something she would "get over", but that acceptance apparently just encouraged her to be more open about what the two of them were doing, the affair became more public and MUCH less discreet (like your friend, she would spend entire nights and weekends "away"), and I couldn't continue to handle the humiliation of being married to a woman who would behave that way: some of what they started doing in public I can't even say here. I finally had to divorce her, I asked for a transfer out of town at my job, and I left the house for her. She's become kind of a joke, but almost no one I work with now or live near has any idea what she did. Over time, I've found many, many white men who have experienced what I experienced, even though I thought at the time I was unique. But you are right: very, very few of the guys I have talked to had ANY idea their wives had crossed over. And the ones that though they would come back? We were all wrong. My wife and her horse-** stud are still living in the house where we raised our children and lived as a family. In addition to being a humiliation, it makes me sick.
I have to say that life is amazing and unpredictable.I know,just like many of us men,you never saw this coming and sounds like you had been blindsided.But it seems to me that you did many things right;gave her time to figure it out,which gave you time too,did not harm her or her lover physically or otherwise,left her a house probably without a fight and lastly moved away.You are a bigger man in the way you acted. We can blame the men,like me, who enjoy ** these ** desiring married women,but the bottom line is,it takes two to tangle. Even if I say no to a woman,she is going to fish till her ** hooks some **!Unless a woman is **,she should get 50% of the blame for infidelity...just for not being able to help it or for giving it up,lol. But joking aside,women have sexual desires, like we do ,and can be very meticulous in carrying them out.The power of ** can tear down a mountain-look at the Clippers owner,he gave away money,houses,cars,his family,his team,all for **.From what I know,lots of white guys have made quiet arrangements with their wives to ** a regular guy or guys discreetly,so that they can stay married for a number of personal reasons,and avoid divorce for as long as it takes.Some women have blackmailed their men for sexual freedom,just like your ex did you.Happy strong monogamous marriages are there,but for each happy marriage,there are many where strange things are happening.Its easier now, than ever, for married couples to carry on affairs,that can go undetected for years due to all the technological advances,laws,mobility,work, and supply and demand for **/people in the world.From what I see,it is always a negative for a guy to **, and criminal to fight his woman because she is cheating.The laws are not on our side;we are expected to take it and play kool,or pick up and move on and be followed by child support and whatever else.The bottom line is,marriage vowels on not,the woman owns her body,she can do whatever she pleases.
Vowels == vows
I wish I could argue but I can't. I totally blamed the guy at first, a black man I thought I knew and who I considered a friend, though I wouldn't say we were close friends. We would go to ball games together, watch the Super Bowl together, he even went to our church for awhile and was active in the same ministry areas as we were. It never occurred to me that he would do something like he did. Of course, it REALLY never occurred to me that my wife would do that either. So, when I found out, I blamed him. I thought he had seduced her, tricked her, misled her, enticed her to act in the unbelievably disloyal and just plain filthy way she acted. But she said none of that happened. She said SHE came on to HIM and wouldn't let him say no. Even then I thought he had just done some kind of black-man-voodoo Jedi-mind-trick thing on her to make her think the ** was her idea, particularly since she had never been aggressive in her life, much less sexually aggressive. I was in denial, obviously. I had probably been in denial about who she was and what her sexual needs were for YEARS. So I think you are right, although I wouldn't have thought that several years ago: if my wife hadn't ** that particular black male, she would have gone to another black male and gotten what she was looking for (and there are things that she has said to our married daughter that support that, though they are too dirty to repeat here). Intellectually, then, I shouldn't hate the guy. But I still hate the guy. I can't help it, even though I know my wife would have gone elsewhere for the black ** if she hadn't gotten it from him.
That is a great explanation and perception.I hope many people will read it and really think about it.In my opinion,you have analyzed the whole fiasco and summed it up succinctly and objectively.Though you were in denial at the onset,I believe we heal better when we own up to out role in anything and more so accept reality.Hopefully you have healed or are in the process of doing so.I wish you could share with us what your ex wife is telling your married daughter.From thinking about it,my guess is that she may be enticing your married daughter to try a black guy, or is telling the daughter how good her lover is so that your daughter can go astray,just like mom did.I could be wrong but sometimes,like mom like daughter.