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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I admit that my marriage does have something to do with how I feel about this young girl. I still love my husband but we haven't had ** in almost 2 yrs. Our 4 kids are almost all grown (only 2 are still living with us) and I think probably all of them are having lots more ** than we are. I think its also got to do with her being so young and fertile with at least 2 pregnancies I know about (1 child was aborted and 1 was born and is being raised by the father and his wife) and maybe others that I don't know about. Shes not raising any of them but now that shes out of her parents house and they cant control her no more yes it does seem almost certain that this incredible black creature she lives with will give her multiple babies. yes shes lucky he took her when her parents kicked her out but I have to also say that he is lucky with her because she is so good looking of a girl and she is more ** than women twice her age. That black man is a really lucky man and if he dumps her this is the sort of girl who wont be without a man for very long. All the guys at work want her ** bad and especially the black guys. You should see them trying to get with her. I know what you mean about some white parents trying to discipline their daughters not to go black: one of my friends from high school and her husband did that (he's biased but she's not) and their daughter left home and got pregnant right away, just exactly like you said. I know you know all that so maybe I'm just trying to convince myself of why I feel so jealous of this little teenager and her relationship. I really loved what you said about her being pregnant right now but I admit that the idea even makes me even more jealous of her. And my insanity even makes me feel like I hate her for being so fortunate. God......I need to stop writing: I'm making no sense at all. Forgive me please.
What has inhibited you from having ** with your hubby for the past 2 years?Aye you still able to have kids?How many affairs have you had while married and what was the best one like?
My husband gradually lost interest in ** to the point that almost 2 years ago we just sort of stopped altogether. I asked about it for months and months and then begged a few times but always just got ignored. He alway says it isn't been as long as I say its been but believe me a woman knows when her spouse or S.O. stops ** her. Yes I can stil have kids but my "window" is closing (I'm almost 42 but still in excellent health and my doctor hs cleared me for getting pregnant again, if that ever happens). I used to have affairs farily often (not sure how many exactly over the years) but the last two ended badly and I've been on a break since the last one which was horrible. But I intend to end my break this year as one of my resolutions. :) My best one by far was with my husbands boss but that wsas a pretty long time ago beginning around the time I married my husband though I stillthink of him and miss him and ache for him so bad. I ache so bad because the ** he gave me were so good. But this little white girl has just lit the ** fuse in me with her black lover, along with your idea that she is probably already pregnant: now when I look at her I just think of her having his baby inside of her and how ** of an idea that is.
I see. So since hubby not willing to share himself with you anymore,would he be upset if;(a)you told him you want to have an affair openly or discreetly, and (b)ended up pregnant by a man of your choice? Then (c)how badly did the relationships end?
I was absolutely certain that there was no way my husband would ever agree to my having an affair, but like you said, just because he's not interested doesn't mean I should suffer. Sooooooooo I screwed up my courage and asked him again if we could renew our sexual relationship, just like I had in the past, and again he said he just wasn't interested. Then I asked if he was seeing another woman, and he said no and I believed him. Then I asked if he wanted someone else that he wasn't dating, and he said that wasn't happening and wasn't going to happen. Then, finally, I asked the big question: "Would you object to me having an affair?" To my incredible surprise, he didn't seem surprised by the question. And to my even more incredible surprise, he said he wouldn't object. I hid my shock from him and decided to push my luck a little. I told him I already had a guy picked out, even though that wasn't strictly true. And I told him that the terms of the arrangement would be up to me exclusively, and he would have no say in anything. He said that was okay. I pushed a little more and said part of what that meant was that I could be open in dating, and not always try to hide it. He said okay again. I told him I still loved him and that my body would be available to him whenever he wanted it, and he would always be my first priority, but that I would never permit him to date or have affairs: I told him "I'm going to be in control of all of the **, no matter who is involved in it, and all of it will always be on my terms: ALL of it." That last part will cover a lot of sexuality, and even some things that might embarrass him, but mostly -- as I am sure a man as experienced and sexually sophisticated as you are will see immediately -- it will also give me the flexibility to get knocked up by whomever I choose. I never thought he would go along with anything like this, and so I would never have asked him, if YOU hadn't suggested it. What can I say? THANK YOU!