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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I was absolutely certain that there was no way my husband would ever agree to my having an affair, but like you said, just because he's not interested doesn't mean I should suffer. Sooooooooo I screwed up my courage and asked him again if we could renew our sexual relationship, just like I had in the past, and again he said he just wasn't interested. Then I asked if he was seeing another woman, and he said no and I believed him. Then I asked if he wanted someone else that he wasn't dating, and he said that wasn't happening and wasn't going to happen. Then, finally, I asked the big question: "Would you object to me having an affair?" To my incredible surprise, he didn't seem surprised by the question. And to my even more incredible surprise, he said he wouldn't object. I hid my shock from him and decided to push my luck a little. I told him I already had a guy picked out, even though that wasn't strictly true. And I told him that the terms of the arrangement would be up to me exclusively, and he would have no say in anything. He said that was okay. I pushed a little more and said part of what that meant was that I could be open in dating, and not always try to hide it. He said okay again. I told him I still loved him and that my body would be available to him whenever he wanted it, and he would always be my first priority, but that I would never permit him to date or have affairs: I told him "I'm going to be in control of all of the **, no matter who is involved in it, and all of it will always be on my terms: ALL of it." That last part will cover a lot of sexuality, and even some things that might embarrass him, but mostly -- as I am sure a man as experienced and sexually sophisticated as you are will see immediately -- it will also give me the flexibility to get knocked up by whomever I choose. I never thought he would go along with anything like this, and so I would never have asked him, if YOU hadn't suggested it. What can I say? THANK YOU!
... and BTW: I had this discussion with my husband last week, and ever since then, my aching jealousy of that little girl at work has been more under control. I mean it's still there, but now at least I know that I will be able to get something that make my situation more on the level with hers and that makes me happy. And it also makes me hot. And **. Again......thank you so much!!!
Wondrous! You have made gargantuan progress in a such a short time.You are a great student:).As the saying goes,be careful what you ask for,you might get it;and as I can see,you got more than you bargained for and its awesome. You are a shrewd negotiator and u know how to cover most ,if not all your bases.Since you now have the green light,enjoy getting laid in moderation,over-indulgence could be bad for your health-but you are wise and experienced enough to know all that.MOST WELCOME! Just let me know when your ovulation days are this month or next and we can meet up and I can get you knocked up before that window you are talking about closes up. It seems like hubby will help you raise the baby in a stable family home, so no issues there, and that gives me great peace:).
So assuming all your kids are white,what do you think they,you and hubby's family,neighbors,friends,pastor and others, will think and say if you end up getting with some brotha and end up pregnant with some cute or handsome baby later this year,especially since you and hubby seem determined to stay together?
I didn't actually tell him that my intentions include a pregnancy or pregnancies: I thought that would be pushing too far. So I just worded what I asked for in such a way that he couldn't later claim I didn't get that totally wonderful "green light" you referred to. Dear God isn't that just a wonderful feeling? Having a "green light" to engage in what my heart and mind want and what my ** and womb need? Yes.....I needed and I have a "green light"! Thank you for that image! As for the reaction that I expect from hubby, kids, my parents, hubby's family, neighbors, friends, pastor and others, I think they are going to all consider me an oversexed white woman who has found her purpose in life, and who has perhaps found real love. Our pastor will absolutely consider me a sinner. My belief is that this is all going to be so exciting and delicious that it will outweigh any possible negatives that arise. That may be naïve, but my body aches so much for this that I just don't care what others think or say: in fact, to be honest, I believe that reaction will make my actions more salacious. And the more salacious they are, the more delicious they will be: I'm going to want everybody to know what I've been up to. And as for the father, I don't intend to get myself knocked up by what I think you mean when you use the term "brotha". My intent is to connect with a mature, educated and elegant black man, someone who will remain involved with me and our child, but not demand formal custody arrangements. I think such a man will be a positive model for my white children, and will allow me to place him in a position superior to my husband's. To my understanding, a "brotha" wouldn't do any of that. And I certainly don't think of that term when I think of you: you're FAR more sophisticated. And finally, although my standard may require some searching and delay, I do also intend to deliver my first child for that man before the end of the year. And I hope it will be the first of MANY.
From where you say "my intent is to connect with ..." I think you are talking about me and am not bragging:). I don't know about being elegant but at my age, and armed with overwhelming desire,academically topped with 2.75 graduate degrees,I certainly meet the standards you have set, and I may be the best man to father your baby. Since you have already found me,no delay and searching time will be put to waste, and if we start now, you will still be able to deliver your baby by the end of the year!We simply need to meet before the end of February,sit down and talk about this,work out the details, and if all is mutually agreeable,we start working towards achieving our common goal.