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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I know it sounds terrible but yes......the woman I'm with now doesn't interest me nearly as much as my first wife. And also yes, that ** is hot enough to fry anybody, and as a result, I would totally dump my current wife for my "real" wife, given the chance. I've often thought that if she would send her kids to live with their fathers I would go back and would let her date her blacks as much as she wanted. It was the kids that were the problem.....not so much her cheating. I stayed after she gave birth to one of them fathered by a black man, and she still ** me like a ** animal, but after the second pregnancy I couldn't live with the embarrassment. I still think about her frequently when I'm ** the woman I'm with now. Can't be helped: my wife was the hottest ** I've ever been with. I was lucky in that way, it was just all the kids. Your question haunts me: does she still love me? I don't know, and I don't know that I can ask her without looking ** whipped and giving her ammunition against my current wife....she would totally confront my current wife and tell her how I feel, shes so harsh that way.
I think you are totally honest in your answer and I have no clue what to tell you. There is that popular saying that a bird in hand is worth two in the bush, meaning "It's better to have a lesser but certain advantage than the possibility of a greater one that may come to nothing".If you mess up,you are likely to lose both women.
I hear you my man, I totally hear you. My first wife would cause trouble if she could, just for the sake of trouble: the woman was a totally drama queen, and she could and would blow up my current marriage even if she didn't want me back. I know the reality of that situation, and you seem to know women just like that. I would rather have my first wife, all things equal......but all things aren't equal, as you indicate: I'd rather be with the first one but I certainly don't want to lose them both. You ever have a woman in your life, or just in your bed, that you couldn't get out of your mind? I mean like to the point that it affected your later relationships?
I have had a few women who have been lots of trouble. I have also had some that were so sweet, kind, and loving dream women, but I still let them go. I have a great woman right now; I think the best I have ever had. She is older than I am educated, great heart, awesome **. Nevertheless, two summers ago, I put her on hold somehow, to see if my relationship with my sons’ mom would work out. The sons’ mom was chasing me vigorously and promising the heavens, because her bf had dumped her like garbage, and she knew I was with my current woman and wanted to sabotage that. The attempt to resurrect that relationship never worked for a millionth time. I went back to my current woman. The thing though is, I adore my sons mom somehow, despite the fact that she has caused me lots of pain over 6 years-demeaned me and my family, made a fool of herself and I, told me many times what a piece of trash I am, denied me time with our sons-costing me thousands in legal fees, etc. I have stuck to my target, gained joint custody and now enjoy time with the sons, no much problem. I outwitted her. She is now married n pregnant and seems to be nicer to me. Certainly, I know she is evil and waiting for the right time to strike. However, just like you, I tend to let her transgressions (I cannot think of a better word) easily and think she would be better for me one day. Deep down, I know she will never be; it is just a dream or wishful thinking. But whenever she has a crisis, I am the first person she calls for help. So that I am clear, there has been no ** between us in 15 months and before that, it was 2 years.
I sure do understand that: I get the "crisis calls" like you do. In fact, I get them from her and from another woman I dated right after I got divorced from my first wife. I wasn't married to that woman: we just dated after the divorce, even though she was still married. And also like you said, this business with my first wife may be nothing more than a dream or wishful thinking, but I sure do wish I was hitting that, because ** that woman is hot and fine! Was you wife that way? Was she so good that you can't really replace her?