Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant

After that, he couldn't perform with me sexually, and he could barely even speak to me: his heart was broken and he felt to blame for "killing our baby" and ruining our wedding plans, and our relationship. I tried to coax him out of it -- we even went to a couples counselor together (my urging) -- but he just slipped further and further away from me. At home with my daughter, at work, at church, he was fine, but when I was in the room, he virtually disappeared. About a year later, having had no success in resuming our wonderful relationship (I was still prepared to marry him), I had to face the facts and surrender. However, I knew that my daughter was not able to care for a man like him (she's too flighty and self-centered: she never even noticed how much sexual heat radiated between her husband and her mother), and I made a date for him with a married girlfriend of mine (slightly older than me), telling him that Iris was just what he needed: a grown woman who knew how to ** and keep a secret. Less than 6 months later, Iris was pregnant with my son-in-law's child, having successfully duped her husband into believing it was his. Iris is almost 70 now, the child turned 20 earlier this summer, and she and my son-in-law are still together, and my poor clueless daughter still has no idea that Iris's later-life child was fathered by her own husband, or that Iris still gets more of his seed than she does. I realize that this is not a very unusual situation, and it has much in common with at least two other postings you've received here, but it shows the lengths to which people will go in response to the urge to breed, especially outside of marriage. Although it hurts me to think of Iris being where I wanted to be, I'm happy for both of them and I know they are happy together. And, Iris's husband is in failing health, and I know that once he's gone, she will take Justin from my daughter permanently. {to be continued}

I still have relationships and flings and outside interests that my husband doesn't know about, but nothing like I once did. Part of that is the loss of Justin, but part is also my health. During my harder partying days, not only did I drink too much, but I smoked way too much, and the cigarettes have taken a toll on my breathing, which limits me sexually. In addition, its hard for me to get wet enough to ** properly now. The ** lubes work great on my **, but the vaginal lubes all (and I've tried them all) irritate the deep parts of my **, which makes it difficult to ** a man like a man needs to be **. And, as a man such as yourself knows, that's a real problem when it comes to ** a black man, because a black man gets to the deep parts of my ** right away! Iris, on the other hand, never smoked and even though she's older than me, she looks maybe 5-10 years younger than I do, and I know that makes Justin happy. He wouldn't say so but I'm sure he's glad he wound up with Iris instead of me because of her beauty and her youthfulness, and because when her husband dies (probably soon), Iris will be very very well-provided for and she and Justin will be together. I'm sorry to have taken up so much of your space here and to have rambled on and on with such mundane detail, but I thought you might want to know the background that led me to feel so alive and ** and **-hungry after reading your thread here. All of this makes me wish I could go out this weekend and get myself pregnant by a handsome, educated and erudite black man . . . who has ** a lot of married white women and who knows how to sling that ** around. :) Thanks for listening and thanks for all your insights here.

I am sorry for both the miscarriage and the hysterectomy-they are both devastating events in a woman's life.I pray that your health improves tremendously as you work hard at it. I see no need for you to apologize for using up too much space.I don't own the space here and am glad you took that much time and space to narrate such an excellent story.Many people will read all that and be awed. You son is a lucky man to have found Iris and fathered a child by her.Iris herself sounds like a superb woman despite her ailing husband-she was able to have her cake n eat it too discreetly all these years. Your seemingly unselfish quality you show by hooking up your son-in-law with Iris cannot go unnoticed.From reading your story,I could not help but wonder how your daughter and son-in-law ended up getting married;they don't sound meshed at all! What type of relationship does your son-in-law and the baby with Iris have? What fallout do you expect if Iris' hubby dies(unfortunately) and your son-in-law picks up pace in relationship with her? How are you able to hide your dalliances? I almost forgot to tell you that my gf is 4 years older than I, and had the same surgery you had years ago before I met her. Her doctor has prescribed her some hormone patch that helps her out;she is as wet as any 20s year old woman any day and time when we are having **.I hope you will ask your doctor about that next time. Thanks for sharing,I enjoyed and I know many will.

You have great insight into people, even people you don't know. Amazing. You're so right. My daughter and son-in-law are NOT a good match AT ALL, and that was some of my rationalization in entering the affair with him, and also in connecting him to Iris. They were high school sweethearts beginning in her senior year when he moved to town. At first I was glad they connected because she had spent the two previous years involved with an older married man (a very risky situation), but then when Justin started coming around and he and I were obviously "clicking" in an extreme way, I wasn't so glad about their dating. But still you are correct: they don't mesh. Justin meshed with me, and he totally meshes with Iris: I can see him and Iris together and know that he loves her now as much as he loved me all those years ago, and even more because of their child. Justin gets to see the girl often but she doesn't know he's her father, just that he's a friend of her mom and is my son-in-law. Once Iris's husband is gone, they will probably tell her about the situation, and I am sure she'll accept it, because Iris has raised her to be very open about ** and to accept all types of relationships, and she has no qualms about infidelity: like her mother, the child thinks every one should have ** with whoever they are attracted to and whoever they can attract. After the husband's death, I think Justin will leave my daughter, but whether or not he does that, he will be more open about what's happening with Iris. He and I haven't talked about that, but I know Iris will do whatever her man wants because that's who she is. {more below}