Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant

....barbells are posts that fit through a nippple piercing and they have a ball or something on each end, so they look like an old-time barbells that weightlifters used....but some have decorations on the ends (like hearts or flowers or diamonds or rubies or whatever)......and some have a dangle between the ends that swings down bellow the ** itself.....most girls have a few different designs .......... but i have a huge collection (over a hundred sets) that i am sooooo proud of .......different guys like different designs so at least some of the older guys i play with will buy them for me to remember a particular play date we had......to be honest though i dont remember who bought me what LOL ....... but i remember which of the ones i bought for myself and i love them all ...... tell me what kinds of designs you like and i will be sure to wear them on the first few times we meet up...........i just want to be sure that your proud of me when we out in public and that i have some that you will like to have in your mouth....... and i forgot to say that i still didn't tell dezzy that i got kicked out yet.... she will tell our parents and then they will know too much .............. plus i never told dezzy about YOU because i know she will work it to where she gets you instead and she gets pregnant by you............that is just my sis.....its who she is............but.....my husband?.........i have actually started hating him and i hope i do drive him insane because it would prove to him that i should not be toyed with and that i mean what i say.........getting pregnant while i am away from him would serve his stupid ** right dont you think??????? and expecialy if it happens by an older rich hung black man which are all the things hes scaredd of??????????? i haven't thought abuot him hurting me ....... hes too shocked right now that him kicking me out didn't make me ** beg! but i wont ever ** beg, at least not for HIS **....but maybe YOURS???????? :)