Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant

Sorry again. I tried to respond yesterday, and as soon as I hit "Post", my screen blued out, and I couldn't get it to come back on again. I came into the office really early this morning, before anyone else was here, and finally got it running again. But, once I'd fixed the original problem, my screen locked up as I was retyping a lengthy message to you. So once again, nothing got posted. I don't have the time right now to write, but I'll try to do so later in the day or tomorrow (work is kinda insane today). But I'm sorry I didn't do as you said in replying. I did talk with Monica, but as usual it didn't go well: she's very angry and very defensive. More later on. I'm very sorry again.

Trying again, but will make it short and follow up later. Monica insists that she hasn't selected a father for her baby (now refuses to even casually refer to it as "ours"), but I realized later that night that she hadn't denied ** blacks: she had only denied picking one. My best friend who I talk to about these things says he thinks she's "auditioning" black fathers, because having a black baby is only a small part of what she wants: he says what she really wants is an intensely sexual LTR -- and a patently illegitimate FAMILY -- with a black. He says she's thinking about the future and is planning for it, and she's out ** blacks on tryouts. I must admit that she is a Type A planner, so that would be the sort of thing she would do, ** a bunch of prospects until she found one who met the criteria she'd establish. I can tell you that **-size would be at the top of the list: my shortcomings in that department have led to much straying by her during our marriage, though until now, it's all been short-term. More later.....gotta go..........

I knew it...I could feel it in you. The wife is street smart,and knows how to plan things. Thats why she is not interested in your help,she can hold her own. You have lost control...just enjoy whatever you have left,its good for you anyway. What makes her happy should make you ecstatic!

It's so hard to read what you wrote, because it confirms my darkest fear: "You have lost control." I have been trying to deny that for several straight days, but I'm afraid it's true. And "enjoy what I have left"? Christ.......it sounds so dismal and final.......and short. I'm really seriously lost. And hopeless.

Some advise...before you hit post,always highlight copy your message to your browser. I learned that the hard way with this site.