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Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
I am in my late 40s.I am so scared that I will grow old and die without having a child with a white woman.
She and I are both married to white men, and while she has dated several blacks, and is dating one now (all in secret, naturally), I've not partaken, sorry to say, because of the fear of being caught . . . or falling in love. I found this page in searching for stories of interracial romance: I'm a huge fan of and an even bigger sucker for that type of fiction, which I think is incredibly sensual and hotter than hot. And yes, where we live, it's not uncommon to see black men with white women, mostly more-mature black men with young white females, sometimes very young. And I must admit to you that when I see an interracial couple, and the girl is young and pregnant (or carrying an infant AND pregnant), that affects and arouses me more now than it did before I found your page. Thanks for your guidance for so many, and for your great kindness.
I had been waiting for you to post a reply all these days,and thanks for finally doing so:). Why exactly are you worried that you gonna get caught?I am happy you found the page,its going to change who you have been all these years:)This is your enlightenment so to speak.Make sure that in your lifetime,you give yourself a chance to explore your sensuality with at least one fine black man.You deserve it. And your feminine creativity will not allow you to be caught. Ask for some guidance from your BFF,as I am sure she knows some worthy black men...friends of friends types. Don't miss to update us of your transformation.
My girlfriend says what you say: that I'm smart enough to avoid being discovered. But I would be so afraid of it because it would certainly end my marriage, although I confess that there are days when I kinda WANT that. :( Is that crazy? Anyway, I'm not as bold or as capable as my girlfriend, who enjoys the game, is good at it, and really LOVES adultery, so I think I'm relegated to the sidelines, watching her being taken to heaven and treated like a "** queen" (she calls herself that), and living my life vicariously through her adventures and mounds of interracial romance novels and videos. I love what you said, "explore your sensuality", which would be a beautiful thing for me, but alas, I'm not strong enough to follow through. She always encourages, but I always shrink away. Still, your page really HAS been the "enlightenment" you describe, and you have expanded my horizons more than anything or anyone I've encountered. You are a treasure, and I appreciate you and all your incredible work here.
I appreciate you greatly too. You are a woman on the right path and when your travels intersect with a fine black man,your heart mind, and ** will certainly cease the opportunity and savor it.You can do it without ending your marriage. I know this because I have dated many married women in my lifetime,and for some of us,dating a married woman is so ** and invigorating.You also deserve to be a Queen to someone for a day, week, month,year, or forever. I am sure your gf was once in the fright stage that you are in now,before she graduated to being bold.I picture you as Bold and Beautiful,you just need to take one small step (the journey of a thousand miles begins with one step-Lao Tzu).Carpe Diem. What state or country do you reside in?
You should be a professional writer, since you are so able to tap into the interior lives of the people who read your work. Perhaps that's what you do, anyway, but if it's not, you should totally make it an avocation, if not a vocation. The way you describe the thrill of dating a married white woman is EXACTLY how I think of the relationships I dream of with black men, and my fantasies of adultery have ALWAYS been exclusively interracial. ALWAYS. Even when I was in middle school. I will confess to you that I've had four adulterous relationships during my nineteen years of marriage, all with white men, and none that lasted longer than a few weeks: the relationships were a disappointment (one was an outright disaster, in fact), and so were the men. Why? They weren't black. Yes, a part of the problem was my fear of discovery, but mostly it was that they never fulfilled me or my intense need for love. I want to be what you described: a Queen to a fine black gentlemen, who knows his business and knows his women, and who keeps them in their place. I could write to you for hours, but there are space limits, and I have to begin the workday. One final thought, when you said that when I find my special black man, my ** will seize him, I actually felt it down there, like my ** was grabbing for something. Reaching for it. Needing it. I got soooooo wet, and my womb began to twitch and ache and want. God, yes, you should be writing interracial romances. Oh God YES!!! On the other hand, one could say that you've been doing that for almost four years, the only difference being that, instead of fiction, you've been writing non-fiction. (BTW: we live in Illinois.)