Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant

^This^ is total complete truth. More truth than anything that has ever been written or spoken. I think the other two women who posted here would agree that the black ** is the greatest power in the history of the world. I was happily married for nine years with only 5 or 6 affairs during the entire time. But those were all with white men. I had never been with a black man until last fall. I took up with him just on a whim. I thought it would just be a one-time thing. I was wrong. From the moment he put it in me I knew my old life was over and a new one had begun. That moment "altered the way my brain understood life before": that is the perfect expression of what I felt although I could not have said it that beautifully. After that first penetration I could not go back to my family or what I was before. I left home to make myself available to the black man whenever he might want me. My husband (who knows the ** I have become) has asked me to come home and told me we can work it out even with what's happened. My children (who don't know what I have become) have begged "Mommy please come home". But I can't. Yes what he said is truth: "black ** is a powerful thing" and "should never be tried by the faint of heart". Black ** takes over every part of you. "Between the legs" is just the point of entry but it totally consumes the **, the **, the cervix, the womb, the uterus, the heart, the soul, the mind, the body. You come to belong to it. With me that happened instantaneously. With others it might take a few minutes or hours. With some a matter of days. But make absolutely no mistake about it: black ** will consume you. The only thing I disagree with is the observation about the warning label. I know it was intended as irony and humor but I have to say that a label would not help any white woman: if a black man sets his sights on you he will have you. A warning will do no good. If he wants you he will own you. All of you. Period.

That is a powerful first hand testimony and I am glad you concur and can express yourself so eloquently. How old are your kids now? What are your living arrangements/plans? How exactly did you meet this all-consuming guy?Will you be giving him kids any time soon?

I'm so happy that you replied to me. That makes me feel so justified in my beliefs and actions. It makes me feel RIGHTEOUS. Thank you! Our children are 8 and 4 and 2. They are all white and they were all fathered by my husband. I live in an apartment for now but that may change if I get a condo in a better part of town. That will depend on what happens between my husband and me with settlement. We have not filed for divorce or property division and distribution yet. I ask your mercy and forgiveness in advance because the next two things I will tell you will sound horrid but they are true. I met this man - and his wife - at church. Our family had changed churches and we met them there. He and I were attracted to each other instantly. He later told me he could "smell" my desire all over me: true or not that observation lit my fuse even more. I know that is wrong but I still love the fact that we began our sinful relationship in that place. It makes me hot and the adultery makes me want him even more. What we are doing is filthy but we both enjoy it more for that very reason. The second thing is worse so again I ask your tolerance. He and I have not spoken about children between us although he asked that maintain my use of the pill "for now". I don't know what he has in mind but I don't care if he wants me pregnant or not. I am a mother but I would gladly surrender my children if it meant maintaining my relationship with this man. I am 32 years old and I would get pregnant and stay pregnant with his children until I am no longer able to any longer be impregnated. But if he NEVER asked for that I would still leave my children behind to be available to him whenever he wants me to open my legs. Does that make me a bad mother? Yes. But I don't care about that and I don't care about my children. I care about this magnificent black creature and his magnificent black **. He could keep me pregnant or never knock me up. Either way is fine. I don't need to know.

At 32,you are very young and ripe. I can see a few kids with your lover in your future. What makes you be so much in love with your lover, but not as much with your hubby?