4 Years Wasted?
I've been in a dating relationship with the same guy for 4 years as of this weekend, but lately I've been having my doubts about how much he truly loves and cares about me, if at all. He's incredibly loyal, which is almost impossible to find in a partner these days, and says the sweetest things, but that may be part of the problem. Because in spite of his honeyed words, lately I've noticed more and more that he doesn't back it up with action. And words on their own are beginning to feel more empty and meaningless. This weekend is our anniversary, and even though money's a little tight for me right now, I bought him a fairly expensive gift, relative to my budget, in part because he had been dropping hints about my gift. I should probably preface this with the fact that I am an avid reader, and I usually love books, but... He gave me three books that I had already read because I borrowed them FROM HIM a few months ago, and then gave them back when I was done. It was completely and utterly thoughtless. He didn't even try. His excuse was that 'he forgot' that I had read them already. Nevermind that he didn't actually get me anything. And while he promised to take me to the mall and let me pick something out, it's not the same. Because I want a gift from the heart, not a shopping trip at his expense. Maybe if this were an isolated incident, I would be okay, but more and more I've been feeling like this relationship is one-sided. And while I don't want to throw it away, I don't know how long I can carry on feeling this way.