This Christmas made me feel more alone than ever.
I don't feel like I have any family left in the world, but I have some very close friends who I think are just as good.
I was adopted before I was born, but I still didn't really feel like part of the family. My (adoptive) mom was sick for my entire childhood, so I was basically raised by my grandmother until mom died when I was 12. I moved in with my dad and changed schools and shortly thereafter, my grandmother died and my dad remarried. I went off to college and he built a new life with my step mom, and he's very happy now, but since then, I haven't felt like I actually belong anywhere. I avoid going home for the holidays because I feel like a guest in the house, not a daughter. For Christmas, my parents got me a scarf, socks, and some candy. They have absolutely no idea who I am and it kills me to think that I have so much in common with my biological mom (who I've stayed in contact with), but I missed the chance to spend a life with a real family.