I want to leave the father of my child.
I have a great boyfriend and we have two children together. We have had QUITE the spectrum of ups and downs and we manage to always pull through. Things have been a LOT better between us lately, but I have noticed something that just makes me question it all: every single time I bring something up to him, it's "nagging". In the beginning I wasn't the greatest girlfriend but I have been trying so hard lately to treat him great and not complain for us and our children. Things have gotten a h*** of a lot better. But I am just tired of the way things are. I want companionship, not just a relationship. And there is no companionship. He'd rather spend his free time without me. He always sleeps on the couch (we have a 4 month old whose crib is in the bedroom), so I am always the one who gets up with our son through the night. I get up with both kids in the morning. Basically everything people need to do in their life (cooking, taking care of kids, bill paying, laundry, grocery shopping) I do IT ALL. I lose sleep taking care of our son so he can snooze away on the couch after staying up until 2 AM playing video games. Now, he is a GREAT man and does love our kids, he works two jobs to provide for us while I work one. But I just feel like I need more than this. We have been together for almost four years and I am unsure if I am being selfish, I just know I don't feel the companionship and I need that to be satisfied with him. I feel alone in all that I do.