Where do i go from here?
I have recently realized I have feelings for my psychology professor. He's actually about 8-9 years older than me (I'm 19). When I first met him, I noticed he had a wedding band on, so that restrained me. Besides, I knew as a student it is wrong, and he probably wouldn't be interestedin me anyway if I wasn't in his class. Over the months, I (along with other students) noticed his ring disappeared or that he didn't wear it all the time. Not once did he ever mention a wife, which confused us. My sister's boyfriend, a former student of his, found that odd and said he used to mention her in conversation before. Still, I tried not to think too much about it; I felt it wasn't my place to pry. Last week, I visited him to talk about a personal issue that had to do with the class. I suffer from acute anxiety and he wanted to know if I needed any extensions, tutorials, etc. I said I was fine since I'm passing with a pretty good grade. But he offered some advice anyway, and hoped that I followed through with treatment and my plans to be more open in the future about my anxiety with my family. He wished me well and I left feeling a bit better.
the point here is: I really like this man. He's smart, kind, and open minded. there's so much I want to know, but the semester is basically over. I might run into him whey now and then, but I want to see him more than that. But here is where I feel guilty. There are rumors that he's currently separated/going through a divorce. And I feel so horrible for wishing they are true. It makes me feel like a terrible person, because I know divorce is a serious issue. My own parents are divorced, and it really affected my dad's trust in people. I just don't know what to do or think right now. Maybe I'm just way too smitten that I can't think straight.