Life is over
I'm 23 & pregnant. I feel like my life is over. I'm happy I'm pregnant. I hate being pregnant. I hate the symptoms. I'm excited about having my son here next month. I'll take good care of him. But the life I had before as s*** was an easy one. Don't get me wrong I used protection & took care of myself & getting into this relationship a few years ago I really didn't expect this to happen. It's not completely bad. My friends who already have kids continue to be s****. I don't have to be in my relationship but even then if I end it I no longer can be a s***. It won't be right. Not that it ever was. Now I have a child to think about. I have a child to raise rather than being a s*** having one night stands. I'm sure once he's here being a s*** won't matter anymore but I can't help but feel like my life is over. How can I be sexy & a mother? The 2 don't go together to me. It doesn't add up.
Anyone understand me??