All I Wish for is to be Somebody's Baby
Never been kissed, never been dated, once in two years flirted by some random dude. Am I that ugly?
I live in a conservative society and it kills my non-conforming nature. Not many guys here find me desirable and sometimes, such as these times, I feel lonely and unwanted.
Yeah, you say friends and family. Fyi, I disowned my family, bunch of toxic people. Save your judgement until you walk my shoes, alright? Friends are cool, but close friends are rare. They don't even remember my birthday.
I sound bitter. Maybe that's what life had done to me. But I still have some dreams left. A dream that everything might get better.
As a teen, I vowed to never get married, seeing how my parents treated the family. Then loneliness creeps in and I find myself sleeping alone, longing for a cuddle, a spoon, not just s**. More than that, I longed for companionship.
Will I have a happy ending? Dunno. I hate to hope again. I'm going with the flow. I'm not that old to be called a 'spinster'. Maybe along the way, I might mend myself again. Or, if life is truly a b****, then I die a virgin, lonely and bitter.
In the meantime, I'll find solace in arts and cats. Stuff I'm good at now.