I can't stop

Im out of control... I don't know where to begin. I am in love with a Pastor! And I don't know how this happed I Know Better! I am married to a non christen man and we have a bad marriage, but because of my faith in God I trust he will change. I talked with a Pastor about it and he became a listener, a provider, a dad to my kids he was everything I need in a man, but he is NOT MY MAN! We haven't been physically intimate, but our hears are becoming as one. I can't just stop.. I pray and Pray asking God to give me the desire to stop, but I need so much prayer!!!

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  • Dear out of control:

    Have you considered that your pastor needs you at least as much as you need him? The pastorate is a very, very lonely profession. Listening, providing and being a dad to your kids goes far beyond his churchly calling. Do not doubt that he understands your deep, cavernous, emptiness that craves to be filled.

    Since you don’t know how this happened, you haven’t set out to make this so. Yet your hearts are becoming as one anyway. Have you considered that this is so because it is SUPPOSED to be so? Still, you should keep on trusting for your husband. Perhaps God will honor that. Also, keep praying to stop desiring physical intimacy with your pastor. Perhaps God will honor that.

    Even if it feels embarrassing or shameful, make your prayers as specific as possible. Humility is an important spiritual discipline in the mortification of the flesh. In prayer, confess how you want to touch and be touched, in what ways, and how all that makes you feel.

    Think of God as your lover. That too is a spiritual discipline. Tell God everything and project all your desires on him. He loves you and can take it. Besides, he already knows it; but YOU need to tell it to him.

    Moreover, you must do this every time those thoughts come. Be brutally honest with God and with yourself. If you must fantasize, think of Jesus holding you.

  • Pastors know well how to bed women from their congressions,you will have no problem doing him eventually

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