I'm at the end of my rope. I want to leave my husband, he doesn't make me happy anymore, all he does is drink and watch tv. I'm pregnant with our fourth child, I didn't want to get pregnant but I was scared cause every time I told him no to s** he would get mad and call me a w**** and say I was f***Ing someone else, so I had s** with him so he wouldn't hurt me. He's threatened to kill me and my friends. He broke my foot with a bottle of liquor, he's been to jail for beating me but I haven't left because I don't our kids in a shelter or in day care, I hear bad stories about it. Our five year old has aspergers and our one year old had sickle cell anemia, she's had two blood transfusions and is on chemo medication. I know I'm severely depressed right now but I have four kids to take care of so I don't have time to feel sorry for myself. My husband wont take off work so I can go get the help I need. I'm afraid I'm going to get worse and end up like my mom on a million medications. She used to lock my sister and i in our room and leave so she could get drugs. She's so depressed she never leaves her room now. I don't want to end up like her but its where I am headed.