I'm still in love my affair partner
I had an affair for 4 years with a man that I thought was truly my soulmate. I truly almost left everything for him. My marriage, my son, my job, my family, my reputation....everything.
The guilt I had of potentially devastating my son always held me back. I couldn't do it to him.
So, long story short...my lover dumped me. Although, I deserved it, the pain of losing him is still on the forefront of my mind.
My husband forgave everything and wants to start fresh. I know its the best thing for our family. And I truly think he is genuine.
The problem....I'm not attracted to him anymore. Not even a little bit. I WANT to be. But I'm not. All I can think about is my lover. I want him...I miss him....my heart breaks everyday that I can't be with him.
I feel my life is over.