I self harm for no reason
So last year I stared self harming probably because people around me were doing it. I guess I just wanted to try. I wasn't depressed although some people thought i was because my grades dropped so much. I don't think I did it for attention eaither because I cut on my upper thighs and only about 3 people knew. There's was no reason for me to even be sad in the first place. My parents got divorced when I was like 6 but most parents do. My mom got remarried short after and later my dad did too. At the beginning of that year my dad got divorced again and my step mom of five years moved out. I mean I missed her but I wasn't depressed.
I continued self harming for about 9 or 10 months (almost everyday) then just stopped. I wasn't even trying to stop but I just lost the urge to cut. Now it's been over a year and I'm getting urges again. I hate my scars so much but hiding them is really hard. I don't want anyone in my family to know because I saw how stressed out they became when they found out my older sister was cutting. Honestly I know they will eventually find out but i try my best to hide it. I don't want any more scars but I want to cut really badly. Sorry if this was too long I just needed to get it out.