I scared to come out
I'm transgender boy. That means s** assigned to me at birth is female but that's not how I mentally feel.
I'm afraid to come out to my family. They have suspicions about my sexuality but I know they're wrong.
My family is Christian. And if I come out to them I know for a fact as soon as I come out I'll be on my way to a group home or a family member who can fix me.
I hate that everytime I look in mirror I notice all the wrong things happening to my body. The sick part about it is I've forced myself to accept it because I know deep down that if I change I won't have a family anymore.
I've realized that the only person I have to love with forever is me. So I've decide that when I go to college in going to change my name and basically disappear after telling them.
And next month in August I starts school, I'll be freshman but I go to a private Christian college prep. I'll probably have to transfer because I absolutely refuse at all cost to wear the girls uniform.
I seriously don't know what to do with my life now. So far all I am doing is surfing behind a female name, anatomy, and pronouns. I'm convinced I'll go through more h*** next months.
I'll take any advice given.