I scared to come out

I'm transgender boy. That means s** assigned to me at birth is female but that's not how I mentally feel.

I'm afraid to come out to my family. They have suspicions about my sexuality but I know they're wrong.

My family is Christian. And if I come out to them I know for a fact as soon as I come out I'll be on my way to a group home or a family member who can fix me.

I hate that everytime I look in mirror I notice all the wrong things happening to my body. The sick part about it is I've forced myself to accept it because I know deep down that if I change I won't have a family anymore.

I've realized that the only person I have to love with forever is me. So I've decide that when I go to college in going to change my name and basically disappear after telling them.

And next month in August I starts school, I'll be freshman but I go to a private Christian college prep. I'll probably have to transfer because I absolutely refuse at all cost to wear the girls uniform.

I seriously don't know what to do with my life now. So far all I am doing is surfing behind a female name, anatomy, and pronouns. I'm convinced I'll go through more h*** next months.

I'll take any advice given.

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  • This is heartbreaking. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. You need to be who you are. In my opinion you also need to tell your family. First though I would talk to a doctor. They can offer you so much help. More than you think. Do you have anybody supporting you? You shouldn't be going through this alone. I advise you to tell your family. It might be hard. Not gonna lie but I imagine its going to be similar to telling them your gay. It will get easier and you will live happier knowing you were open and honest with who you are and don't have the pressure of hiding anymore. I wish I could do more. I hope all goes well for you.

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