This is not what I wanted
When I was younger I always looked forward to the fact that at one point I would really like someone and love someone and now it happened and it f****** sucks. Why oh why did I have to fall in love with my best friend. I'm 15 and I have no idea how to deal with this and it's such a g****** cliche and significantly more painful than I thought it would be.
I wish she was straight, so that way I would have absolutely no chance, but nope, she told me she was bi which means that one tiny, traitorous part of me thinks that there's hope.
This isn't fun and I am most definitely not enjoying myself.