Goimg ti kill myself this weekend..
I just got out of a 9 yr relationship w the father of my kids and into a relationship w a man iv E known all my life. A real man. I'm head over heals in love w. I wanna spend the rest of my life w this man. But I cant seem to do anything right. I smoke too much pot, I like the wrong picture on Facebook. I'm at the point that I'm so tired of trying at life. I love my kids w all my heart but I think its better for them to not have me. I feel like I'm a bad mother and a bad person. That I'll never get anything right in life. My kids are going out of state w their paternal grandmother this weekend and I plan to kill myself while they are gone. I cant take trying and failing continueously anymore. I have no one to talk to other than my mother and she's made things worse.. I guess I just wanted to get this out.. If read thanks I guess.