The Deep Secrets of Women

I'm 23swf and I am deeply involved in an affair with my female boss's husband. If anyone finds out, it will be a horrible scandal in our company and in our city, and he'd lose his family, and I'd lose my job. I don't know how I got in so deep, but I know this: I can't get out now. He is my life.

How did the affair start? How come you cant get out now given all the repercussions?

It started innocently. I was an intern at this company one summer and then they hired me for the next school year and I went to work for Deanna. I just met him at the office and we became more and more attracted to each other over time. We started making love that October but even then we both said it was just a physical thing. But by Christmas we were having an actual affair. It wasn't just a fling anymore. The reason I can't get out is that now I love him. Real love. True love. I can't live without him. It bothered me for a while that he was married. I don't even care about that part anymore. But when I really think about the fact that he is married TO MY BOSS and the horrible explosion it would cause if anybody ever knew (it would be on the news) I get really depressed. My friends and my parents think I'm either gay or just weird or emo or something because nobody knows he and I are a secret couple and everybody thinks I just stopped dating in high school. I used to "go out on dates" sometimes just to keep up the appearance but I can't stand sitting across a dinner table or bar table from a guy whose only thought is getting in my pants that night. It's just a horrible waste of life to spend time with men who aren't Ted and who don't know how to take care of me. No, I can't get out. I know I should get out. But can't get out. Ted loves me. And he knows just how to ** me.

Any plans for you to have his kids?

OMG!!! How did you know that I have been thinking about that???? Yes that very thing!!!!! I would so totally and completely LOVE to begin having his children and it wouldn't matter to me even if he stayed with Deanna. BUT.......I would want to have FOUR of his children because she only had two for him, and if I had four then not only would I win but I would have doubled her. I want him to always look at me and no matter what he's thinking for him to realize that I am TWICE as good as her in his life. He already says I am twice as beautiful and a hundred times better in bed. Ted and I have never talked about beginning a family even if it started or always stayed illegitimate and I would be afraid to raise it directly because I would be afraid that he might feel like I was going to play trick and trap. And then he might go find a younger girl (with implants, of course) who would ** him all the time but who wouldn't talk about kids. EVER. But still......when we are out somewhere (which is NOT often) or watching a movie in bed I will often point out pregnant girls, or girls with their babies, and say how cute they are or how beautiful the girls are or how ** a pregnant girl can just look sometimes, hoping that he will catch my thoughts and start thinking about ME in that same way. I want him to think about me in that way. I want him to start knocking me up. I want his babies. I want to have way more than Deanna has.

Deep down, I hate most men and their weak moral characters. I hate society for making excuses for them to exploit women and children. I'm not saying women don't do this too (they should be shot) but the majority of them are men. I'd love to round all these men up, arm them, stick them on an island and see them kill each other like the monsters they really are.

Really? What did nen do to you?

I have stole money from my best friends moms purse and I did it probably maybe 6-7 times and got $20 each time. I stopped after that. And I felt awful. I only stopped when my friend told me her mom thought somebody was taking money from her, because I was afraid that the mom would blame the daughter when it was me in actuality.

Trust me the mother knows it was you! You blew future trips and opportunities you don't know about yet - hope it was worth it **

All my girlfriends are super freaks - I'm the boring one ;)

The second and third of the four children I've had during my marriage to my husband were actually fathered by his boss at the time. My husband has no clue. The boss knows but will never tell our secret.

How did you get started with the bossy?

First time was at the office Christmas party about 14 yrs ago. Hubby and I had one child at the time, and his boss and I had been lightly flirting with one another for several months. Finally, I got enough booze in me and when he started to flirt that night, I called his bluff and told him to put up or shut up. Told him I wanted his ** in me, and guess what? He put it in me. Took me into an empty room at the banquet hall where the party was being held. Gave me the ** of my life. Told me right then that he would be back for more and I would be expected to provide more. Had no idea how dominant he was, or how good he could **. He got transferred 5 yrs later, but not until he'd knocked me up twice . . . on purpose. Jesus! I loved that man. Still do. And I still love his **. If he called me tonight and said to divorce my husband and fly to him, I'd do it immediately. ** that man could **!! And even better, he knew how to eat a ** **. **!

Where did he go that you cant find him this day and age? Did he try to support his kids in anyway? I know you are very discreet about the whole thing.

Sorry, guess I misled everybody. Still see him but only like once every couple of years. Him and his family moved like four states away, and he hasn't been back to this branch office of the company ever since. Used to ** me about five times a week. Sometimes seven. Nasty **. NASTY **. God he was filthy. I know where he is. Just can't get on him. ** I want that ** of his every day. He would support his kids and he offers still to do that. My husband can provide. Couldn't explain the extra money anyways. So its not like the boss did me wrong. Not close. Gave me exactly what I needed. And wanted. And hungered for. And loved. Yeah........we were both sooooooo good at being discreet. Nobody ever knew a thing. Well.....one person did. The secretary he had while he was here knew about us but she was cool the whole time. And she was heavy-lez so it wasn't like she wanted his big ** instead of me having his big **. :)

I married a man just so I could get closer to his brother. I wanted the brother, and eventually we did start an affair that has lasted for my entire marriage. I would divorce my husband and marry his brother in a ** HEARTBEAT, but the brother won't leave his wife and kids. He's eleven years older than my husband, so my prayer is that when the children are grown and gone, he'll reconsider my place in his life and elevate me to "wife" instead of "mistress". I actually do love my husband, but I love his brother MUCH more. Thanks for opening this thread.

How old are you or your kids with hubby? When do you get time for Brother in law?

I'm 31 (almost) and been married for 6 years. Hubby and me have one child. I want more, but I want them with his brother. I keep praying that when his kids are grown and gone (the youngest now is 14) we'll be together permanently and I can have the children I want: his. He won't knock me up while I'm still married to his brother, and I won't have anymore of my husband's kids. It's very hard for us to find ways and times for us to make love, but we are both motivated so we make it work. I know he's also ** a young girl who has her own place (where they can **), so she may actually get more of him than me, but he doesn't love her. I said before I was his "mistress" but since I'm in second place behind the young girl at least time-wise my girlfriend says that she's actually the "mistress", but I don't care: I love him and he loves me.

You are a woman,therefore,resourceful and creative. Are you seriously saying that you can't get knocked up by your brother-in-law because you lack time and ways? Since you no longer want to have hubby's kids,you might as well let his brother do it because you desire kids with him. Just get off the pill,have ** with him on ovulation days and the rest is history. But I know you know what to do and how to it. Waiting for BIL kids to grow up is a bad idea.

Waiting is not something I'm good at, but he won't agree to knock me up now. If he would do it now, I would totally let him. Like, right now. Today. But he won't knock me up now: I just hope that when his kids all gone he'll have a different perspective. I was saying its hard for us to find the time and ways to spend time together alone for **, so it doesn't happen as often as I want it to. If I got off BC he would knock me up for sure, he ** so much. :)