I'm an Abuser
I was sexually, verbally, mentally and physically abused my dad for years. And he impregnanted me after 4 years of raping me. Then forced me to give him up for adoption. I have so much anger. My mom would be in the next room , she even would ask periodically about him doing it so I know she knew something. He kept me from EVERYONE! I had no friends and anytime he saw me use my phone he always knew what I was doing. He never let me have a life and it started when I was 11 and I got pregnant at 13 and had a baby at 14. Fast forward I've been through it. And I'm in a relationship with a wonderful man and love him dearly but I physically and emotionally abuse him. I know I need help and is in therapy and seeking for medication. I feel horrible inside. We have a daughter together and he means the world to me. He forgives me every time but I feel like one day he will wake up and hate me. I've fought him about 8-10 times. I just want to hear similar stories and how did you manage to not beat yourself up about it.