I'm an Abuser

I was sexually, verbally, mentally and physically abused my dad for years. And he impregnanted me after 4 years of raping me. Then forced me to give him up for adoption. I have so much anger. My mom would be in the next room , she even would ask periodically about him doing it so I know she knew something. He kept me from EVERYONE! I had no friends and anytime he saw me use my phone he always knew what I was doing. He never let me have a life and it started when I was 11 and I got pregnant at 13 and had a baby at 14. Fast forward I've been through it. And I'm in a relationship with a wonderful man and love him dearly but I physically and emotionally abuse him. I know I need help and is in therapy and seeking for medication. I feel horrible inside. We have a daughter together and he means the world to me. He forgives me every time but I feel like one day he will wake up and hate me. I've fought him about 8-10 times. I just want to hear similar stories and how did you manage to not beat yourself up about it.

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  • I am kind of like you.

    It's really nasty because it makes me doubt my abuse and makes me feel like I might be my abuser's abuser too, but they literally hit me so I know that's not true. I really suggest that you end your relationship with this man, I know it's easier said then done, but please.

  • Your right

  • He should dump your loser ass your damaged goods

  • Uncompassionate ass!

  • Being abused yourself doesnt give you a free pass to do it to someone else

  • Lol wrong person, idiot!

  • You already know what the problem is if anything you should have more empathy rather than abuse someone else to piece of s***

  • Everyone is different but thanks

  • You appear to be doing the right thing, attending therapy sessions. Hopefully, you'll overcome these abusive outbursts towards your partner.

    My mother was abused in many ways, from the age of 11 - 23 primarily by, her
    stepfather. My siblings and I were very lucky, as my mother didn't abuse us. Everyone is different and abuse affects victims, within different ways. My mother made sure she didn't treat us, like her stepfather treated her. She showered us with so much love.

    Good luck with your therapy x

  • So sorry to hear.
    I was not abused like you but sort of abused. Im a man. When I was a boy, my mom was very controlling. i was her doll basically. I always had to be dressed up in good clean clothes and quiet and stand beside her and smile and be polite. If I disobeyed her or embarrassed her then when we got home she would beat the crap out of me with the paddle.

  • When my mum was angry, she would refuse to give me a mouth-job for days. She had been sucking my rod since I was 5 years old and she knew how much I loved it.

  • Wow. That's painful to hear. How are you? I'm sure you go through it sometimes :/

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