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Lets go back to last year...Im a jehovahs witness. I slept with another jw whom was my boyfriend and my mom found out. She made me confess to the elders which in turn led to my disfellowshipping(it means no one in the church can even talk to me) then i was given two options from my boyfriends mother..i could either marry him or never see him again..(i made the dumb mistake of choosing option A because I was in complete emotional turmoil due to being shunned) Fast forward a year later and our marriage is terrible. We still live with his parents (he works for his parents of course -_- ) I also found out after snooping through his phone that he was posting ads on craigslist looking to hookup with so many people (he had been doing this craigslist thing before he even knew me though) Anyways, that pretty much destroyed any little faith I had in him. He claims he did the craigslist thing because of his being molested at a younger age.(his step dad molested him and his mom is still married to him) so YEAH! I'm ** married to a perverted ** and I have to see a child molester every day. If I ever have kids, I have to worry about bringing them around the stepdad. I've become so numb and am lost..I have no one to talk to because I am still disfellowshipped and shunned from everyone. I'm 21 years old and I feel like my life is already over.....
Divorce the guy and get out of that stinking cult you are in. Get a job and support yourself and meet people outside this sick religion.
The longer you stay, the harder it will be to leave. And it seems to me that you already know you have to leave, and that at some point you're going to leave. Leave your husband, leave his family, leave the faith. That's a very harsh thing to say, and I'm sorry, but I think you already realize the inevitability of it. Ironically, the hardest to do will be to leave the faith, because that will seem like a denial of your upbringing and a rejection of God. But I assure you: there are churches that will fit far more comfortably with what you appear to actually believe, and who won't make you feel outcast. You are a person of faith, of belief, of religion, but you are not a JW, and I think you've known that for some time. God loves you, always, and He is always with you: don't ever let anyone make you think that isn't true.
For a thousand reasons, you should not attempt to do all of these things at one time. Start by finding a therapist or a counselor and talk through the issues with him or her, and work toward developing a game plan for making these changes, doing so incrementally if possible. If you are advised to just cut all your life ties at once, please find someone else to counsel you: this should be a gradual thing, to allow you to keep some of your footing before you take your next step.
This is not going to be easy, and I'm sorry to offer such bad news. The road will be long, but there will be people available to help you. And you will find a new church, with caring, loving people who believe what you believe and who want what's best for you. Your husband and his family and their church don't want what's best for you: they want what's best for them. Please start taking steps to take control of your life, and get as much help as you can get. I will pray for you and hope you find your ultimate pathway and rewards. Be well.
Ditto re: the divorce idea. You might want to think about the Jehovah's Witness thing too. It doesn't sound healthy for you. You are being mistreated in every direction. Oh, and NO kids. That would be a disaster. You are young. Find someone good.
Do not have kids with him . Get out now and move on with your life . You are young and have a full life ahead of you.
What the **. Divorce his ** and tell all of them to get **. Time to move on.