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I hurt from criticism and rejection
When I just confessed my negative attitude, my "armor" came off and I feel the sadness from all the rejection received in life. My narcissistic parents were first, then peers, men and many others. I am feeling the sadness at my life, my part in it, what I missed, realizing that most of it was my fault, and that much of the criticism I received from others was correct, even if delivered cruelly. It does not change that they were cruel and wrong in what they did. They proved themselves to be children and no different. To admit that I owe people not to use the words "trashy" or any other insulting language makes me sick, because most people do not do or pay what they owe. Most are the rude, nasty people they think I am. Pastors are the worst, because they think they are doing right when they are usually violating chapters in the Bible like 1 Corinthians 7 by preaching against singleness and Matthew 18 by confronting me without humility and in public (like the church foyer or hall). (Both books are in the last part of the Bible called the New Testament.) I like to shock because of all the hurt and hate received as well as given. (Most people who call another "hateful" are really talking about themselves; this also applies to the person crying "You can't hate!" in an authoritative way without the authority.) Having now to care how I present to others make me sick, because many "Christian Pastors" and "Christian Churchgoers" (with very, very important exceptions) are prideful in some way and downright arrogant to single ladies, possibly because they are jealous of the ones with any means. Sometimes a person, particularly a woman, can feel jealous or threatened for other reasons. The ones in a ministry to the poor can be the most prideful. The ones with checkered pasts can be the most delightful and forgiving. People with problems (Christian or not) can be forgiving, understanding and otherwise awesome. I want to be around them!!!!
P.S. Stay away from anyone who uses a phrase like "Praise the Lord" as verbal punctuation instead of praise. That person is probably arrogant and nasty. Those people make the rest of us look bad.
I am a Christian with huge problems, but I am the one telling the truth.
>>P.S. Stay away from anyone who uses a phrase like "Praise the Lord" as verbal punctuation instead of praise. That person is probably arrogant and nasty. Those people make the rest of us look bad.
...Thanks for "revealing" such an "inside secret" that the rest of us already knew. You know, we hellbound heathens who clearly see the hypocrisy in what is supposed to be a source of fellowship and positivity.
It seems like you have a problem with Christianity. Or does your resentment lie with those who profess to be Christians, but don't act in what you perceive - to be Christian ways? What's your problem?
Your whole post is blaming others. Try a little forgiveness.