My dad beats me
I have been dealing with abuse since I was younger and saw my dad physically and verbally abuse my mother . As I got into my teen years he started to do the same to me but now I’m 21 years old and my dad still finds the need to physically abuse me to the max . In which I have scares and bruises . Last night was the night he pulled me out of bed and started stumping me and I called the police . I did nothing wrong . I’m an very respectful young female . I actually tried avoiding arguing with him by walking away going in my room . But he came behind me anyways . He said some hurtful stuff while stumping me . He told me he doesn’t want me their and also telling the police I lied . I have the bruises to prove . It’s so bad I plan on going to the hospital later . But luckily I’m in college . And I spoke with the housing lady and she allowing me to move back . I questioned god because I try my best to be the person I am today . I’m very respectful and I stay out of trouble and I made it so far in college to where I’m an Junior with an Biology Major . I have always been the type to try to show my dad I’m not like the rest . But it’s like he takes his anger out on me . I try and try and yes I’m crying by writing this because it hurts . I forgave my dad plenty of times but I don’t think I can this time . It’s like I feel empty inside . It’s an indescribable hurt that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy . I feel as if this could really impact me on another level . Im the strong type of young women and yes I prayed because that’s what I was taught . I don’t feel alone because I know god is their for me . I just don’t feel as if no one understands my pain and hurt and how low my sawwor is right now . I just wish it was an dream .